Journal

I haven't had much energy to be involved with Daily Strength these days which seems to happen to a lot of us. 

Tomorrow will be 12 weeks!  Yeah!  I am thrilled to be ending the first trimester.  I am so grateful to have reached that milestone.  Not to mention to hope for lessening morning sickness and being so incredibly tired all of the time.  I am fearful that neither is going to go away though.

I have had a few bumps in the road, but nothing too alarming. The vomiting has been significant enough that I have lost about 4 pounds.  And after losing about 5 pounds with stims and ER, it is a little unsettling.  I couldn’t lose this much weight when I try (which isn’t often).  I suppose I get to prolong the maternity clothes buying.

I am taking B6 and meclizine now which has helped a little bit.  I haven’t vomited in a couple of days now and the nausea is lessening. 

I did have some abnormal tests.  I have a high white blood count, but nothing significant.  I have felt like I had a sinus infection for about a month now, but I thought that it was just a part of the normal headache thing.  And it is so minor I keep forgetting to mention it whenever I go to an appointment.  I also have a low red blood cell count which means I am slightly anemic.  They suggested just increasing iron in my diet before they add iron pills.  I think being able to actually keep food down should help things.  And then I have strep B – which means I don’t have strep throat, but strep vagina! 

I guess I had been feeling all of these things – the headaches, the tiredness and just chalked it to be pregnant, but now that I know there are actual things wrong with me and I am really “sick” not just pregnant, I was feeling quite miserable and very cranky.  Top that off with working six days last week, and I just wanted to crawl in bed!

I am hopeful that this week will bring a happier and healthier me! 

Tomorrow makes 9 weeks!  I am so relieved to have another week down.

Last week I had a bit of a scare.  I had some weird pain in my vulva which really hurt when I walked, but not when I sat or laid down.  I went to the drs the next day and everything was fine - just some round ligament pain.  It seems that because I have fibromyalgia I may feel these normal aches and pains as more significant that the rest of the world. 

So my husband and I finally chose a hospital in which to give birth. I know, we are kind of slow on this one. I suppose I didn't really believe that I was pregnant. Both hospitals we chose have midwives that seem to do the majority of prenatal care. Both my husband and I were feeling kind of funny about this. After all the high tech experiences we have had, why go so low tech now?

Ironically, I didn't have a obgyn before we started this process. I just went to a nurse practitioner for my annual visit and occasional issues that arose. It wasn't until we didn't get pregnant in our first year that we went to an obgyn. We spent about 15/20 minutes with the dr and talked about tests. When our SA came back abnormal he called us at home so we didn't have to come back in and told us to head right to an urologist and RE.

Our next ultrasound is Wednesday which is my husband’s birthday.  I really hope we have good news.  It we get bad news on his birthday he would be so miserable.  – not that any other day would be better.  I am sure everything is going to be fine!  Morning sickness is a sign of a healthy pregnancy right?

I am trying 25 mgs of B-6 right now.  It seems to be helping a little, except with my significant triggers.  The worst is this path to the café at work.  We have tons of geese on campus and there is a crab apple tree near by.  Needless to say they leave lots of presents on the path.  Grosses me out every time!

Our first ultrasound was great!

I was a little nervous, but not too bad. 

We measure one sac at .95 cm which is considered 7 weeks. I was very confused because I thought I was at 4 weeks, but then I got the whole pregnancy math explanation and we are 7 weeks today!

She said that heartbeat was great and that lowered the chance of miscarriage, but I am not really sure by how much.  I feel like I have so many questions that I can’t even articulate when I am in the office my brain just starts swimming.

There was another implantation site with a sac, but no heartbeat.  When she mentioned that she could see another site that had implanted I was immediately filled with terror.  I was so relieved when she said there was no heartbeat.  I guess I wasn’t ready for twins!

I was given permission to stop the progesterone, estrogen and baby aspirin which thrilled me!  While it was better than shots, it wasn’t much fun.  It certainly put a damper on me feeling sexy.

So that makes out magical 12 week date on December 9th and due date on June 22nd which happens to be the day of an event I am responsible for.  Bummer! 

My boss is anxious for me to meet with HR, but I need to wait until that magical 12 week date.