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smileLisa 
12:59am Thursday
So Sundays are my weigh-in days and I have to admit that I was a little nervous before stepping on the scale today.
I had a shaky week with my food and I can see a little cushion on my tummy that wasn't there a month ago 
(seriously!) and so I was WAY nervous that I was back up to 144 or something. 
Well not that much, but at least 142. So thankfully I am holding strong at 138. I didn't move my slider to 100% because of my circumstances, but I did change the weight loss and pounds to where I am at now. But I'm not "done" until I am healthy again.
Yesterday I had a HORRIBLE meltdown. Everything had been overwhelming me and upsetting me all day and I hadn't given myself time to just breathe or get centered before trying to do more stuff and I had a GINORMOUS meltdown. As in I couldn't stop bawling to get a word or breathe or see straight for an HOUR. 
OMG. Thank god my mom was here to talk to me and give me suggestions and calm me down out of my crying fit. And then Brian came over and comforted me a lot more so by the end of the night, I was feeling much better. SmileMom (as Emily says) & Brian to the rescue! 
My food went super well yesterday! I planned it out and kept my calories low. It is nice to be holding myself accountable to that kind of structure.
Saturday's Food
Breakfast:
venti white chocolate mocha frappuchino light w/energy boost (285)
cookie dough balance bar (200)
Lunch:
green grapes (205- yes, I measured it out to the grape!
hehe)
low carb monster (20)
Early dinner:
4oz filet of mahi mahi baked in toaster oven with light italian dressing on top (130)
1 romaine heart LOL (30)
2 hardboiled egg whites (40)
4oz nonfat cottage cheese (80)
with a tiny bit of spicy black bean& corn salasa on top (20)
2nd dinner! hehe
power size strawberry nirvana smoothie from Jamba Juice (310)
TOTAL= 1,320 calories
UPDATED GOALS
Lose 71.2 pounds!!
Progress 95%
Current Weight (Lbs)
138
toal weight loss (lbs)
73.2
Encouragements: 85
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yay for 138!! I'm sorry you had a bad day. I know for me sometimes crying it all out makes me feel better. Hope you are feeling a whole lot better!
Jaime1313
Great job at holding steady, I was sure you were going to be okay with your weight. You are always telling us to give ourselves a break, you should probably take your own advice sometimes...it's pretty good advice--haha :) A major meltdown is probably what you needed to get all the stress out, sometimes it's just what we need. It's great you have such a strong support system in your life to get you thru your tough times! You're doing great, hang in there!
NCFroggy
Thank heaven for those people in our lives that care about us! I don't know where I'd be without those in my life. You're doing great with your weight and I'm so proud of you.
Zigzag
Isn't it funny that when we are super busy and stressed out we feel horrible, but when we have nothing to do we are thinking about things we should be doing? I feel so stressed when I have so much to do, but when I am off of work and school I cannot seem to relax. I just give thanks to God that I have a busy life and I am not just waisting it away! Even though you have been sick and not working out as much, you are still swimming and counting calories so I don't think you are behind at all. Now that you are at your goal weight it sounds like you are just maintaining it by eating right and staying active! No worries girly girl, you are trying your best to do what you can! You are SO lucky to have "smile mom" and boyfriend! They are definately your support system. I know that I don't know what I would do without my mom or husband! My birthday is this Wednesday and I don't feel like doing anything because I feel so stressed out. I really hope you feel better! I think it is lack of exercise that is making you feel down. When we exercise we feel better, so you will see that this will pass! Have a great Monday!
Inteligensia
Hey Lisa! Sorry about your ginormous meltdown you had. You'd fit in here my cotton-headed ninnimuggins have meltdowns every hour or so! Good job holding strong at 138. You did a great job maintaining during all the BS going on with the pneumonia and super crazy work schedule OH and the foot incident too! I'm really proud of you!! Give Smilemom a whoo-hoo shoutout for doing such a great job with you! Hope you're feeling healthy and happier now! Love you lots!
Emily75
I have a bigger appreciation for how you are holding steady (and even losing) every day. I have struggled a lotlately, as you know. I think I need more sturcture too- thanks for the good remider and example on planning it out ahead of time and STICKING to it!! Something I have not done well lately. Tomorrow is a new day- I am proud of you for not going to food during your meltdowm. I actually wonder if going to the food prevented me from being present to my feelings- maybe I have needed a ginormous meltdown instead of medicating wit food and keeping my feelings at bay???? Something to consider for me. See, your meltdown could actually have been a healthier thing to do than stuffing your face- especially with a good support system like you have- getting those bottled up feelings out. Anyway, hope you are back on track and ready to smile again! Love you!
Docc
Great Job! Sometimes you just need to cry it out and then things seem better!
angelgirl4182001
WOW, DON'T U JUST HATE DR'S SOMETIMES. I SURE HOPE THEY FIGURE IT OUT AND GET YOU GOING. 5 WEEKS OFF EXERCISING, THAT'S SOOOO LONG, DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE IT WAS THAT LONG. YOUR HOLDING STRONG AT 138 AND THAT'S GREAT CUZ WHEN YOU CAN GET BACK INTO IT, IT WILL BE EASIER TO REGAIN THAT MUSCLE AND GET RIGHT BACK ON TRACK WITH THE EXERCISE. SORRY ABOUT YOUR FOOT, WHY YOU???? KINDA CRAZY HUH. GOOD PAYCHECKS ARE AWESOME AND GLAD YOUR GOING STRONG WITH WORK. GOOD THING FOR MOM AND BRIAN, HUH, THEY ARE THE BEST! SEEMS LIKE THEY HELP YOU STAY ON TRACK AND KEEP YOU MOTIVATED. YOU WILL GET THERE... STAY STRONG AND DON'T GIVE UP AND YOUR PICTURE IS GREAT, YOU LOOK REALLY HAPPY. ~ KATHY
KACKY
Great job at holding steady...you are obviously doing something right! Getting healthy is definitely your top priority right now and it seems like things are moving in the right direction! I am sorry that you had such a bad meltdown, but it is no surprise with everything you have had to deal with lately, plus working an insane amount of hours! You are lucky to have your mom and Brian there to help you through all of this! I hope that you are feeling better today and that you have a fantastic week!
jcstella