Journal Entry for October 26, 2007
I am so tired of being down. I can't afford not being able to function. My house is a disaster and all I do is sit and look at it.
I was misdiagnosed with bipolar 3 years ago but have recently discovered that I suffer from borderline personality disorder.As far as who I am... I don't know! I don't even know where to start. Maybe little by little over time :)
I was misdiagnosed with bipolar 3 years ago but have recently discovered that I suffer from borderline personality disorder.As far as who I am... I don't know! I don't even know where to start. Maybe little by little over time :)
I am so tired of being down. I can't afford not being able to function. My house is a disaster and all I do is sit and look at it.
I destroyed my life. I ruined my family.
are you continuing to write it is beautiful....sweets
stop beating yourself up. There is a good book on how to talk positive to yourself, it worked for me. I had terrible parents who always made me feel like a burden or worthless. I read Becks' "how to be happy" and how to talk positive to yourself and many others like that. That's what's needed, to learn to tell yourself you are a good person and be your best friend, as the saying goes, you got to like yourself before others can. I'm still working on the others :)
I'm giving you the generic 'HUG' because it's what I need right now. Selfish? Maybe. More so though, I know a nice tight warm hug is all most of us need sometimes. Just a hug, no questions or answers or advice etc...just a nice big hug. So there. You have been hugged. AND lucky me...so have I. Peace.
Hello new friend! I guess you know about me because you've seen my responses on the BPD board. I'm here if you need a shoulder or ear, like we all should be for one another. Cheers!
Here's a hug for you today. Sam x
I've always known that something was wrong with me and was on a constant search to figure out what that something was. I nearly destroyed my whole family 3 years ago by having a CRAZY affair. When that whole thing hit the fan I was convinced that I was bipolar despite my therapist telling me that she was leaning towrds bpd.I didn't know what that was and when we had to stop seeing her I went to someone to get dx with bipolar. Anyway,I have since found out that I am in fact BPD.