Casey8156's Journal

I'm bored again, had a pretty dull halloween, haven't been feeling well physically, i think i'm catching what my dad had. feel like shit. plus my buddy isn't online tonight so i'm quite lonley, i should just go to bed, it's almost 2 am but i really don't feel like it yet, i slept nearly all day, i've barely been up for 12 hours. i'm feeling rather depressed tonight, probably cuz i'm sick. i had my therapy appointment on friday, it went well again. we talked about my logs most of the time. we also managed to talk about my sex life, it was rather uncomfortable, but it was something that needed to be talked about, considering last time i tried to have sex i started having flashbacks and went into dissociation mode, then made him leave after he was done, he didn't understand, we were supposed to spend the entire day together, but after that, i just couldn't look him in the face. i also told her something that only like 3 people know, she said it was fairly normal with sexual abuse victims. she said i'm just trying to rewrite my story and that she wants to put my story where it belongs, in the past, and she assured me it would happen over time. so all in all it was a good session considering i didn't sleep the whole night before. anyways, that's all i can think of for now. more later...