Casey8156's Journal

Well, i just got out of the hospital for the 14th time. this time i overdosed, pretty much almost died, if i wouldn't have gotten to the hospital as fast as i did, i probably would have. it was a pretty much worthless stay. i was unable to go the the hospital that i normally go to, and the one i went to was the saddest excuse for a psych ward i've ever seen. they didn't help me at all. i literally lied in bed the entire7 days except for visiting hours and feeding times. the doctor was a foreign idiot, i couldn't understand a word he was saying. he even put me on a medication without informing me first, and go figure, it was one that i had been on before and maxed it out. for 3 days i was on 3 different anti-depressants, i was jittery as hell. so in the end, it accomplished nothing except for catching up on sleep that i really didn't need because that's all i did in the few days prior to overdosing. but it was kind of scary, i had to have my stomach pumped and i had to spend 24 hours in the icu. it definitely gives you perspective on things, and one thing is for sure, if i ever do it again, i will make sure that i am not found.

i had a sleepless night last night, was up all night playing online, talking to my friend. some nights i just don't feel like sleeping, it's weird. i've been taking vicoden and it makes me feel amazing, it gives me energy, and puts me in a good mood, i wish i could have it all the time. i have therapy today then i have to go to the store and pick up my meds, all on no sleep. good thinking casey. dumb ass. anyways, other than all this, nothing special has been going on it life, so i guess this is it for now.