I am bi polar with a delusional disorder. As a result I suffer anxiety and depression. Living from day to day.
I am bi polar with a delusional disorder. As a result I suffer anxiety and depression. Living from day to day.
I am an old gal now, but I've been married to the same gorgeous husband for twenty seven years and have one grown up daughter. I like art, music, the cinema and go most weeks. I love to walk by the sea. Scream and shout a little if the mood takes me. But I love being in bed too, bed is the one place where I can feel completely safe. Oh and I loves cricket and chocolate in that order.
I am an old gal now, but I've been married to the same gorgeous husband for twenty seven years and have
November 19, 2009 11:29am
am afriad I'm not too great today.
Depressed....not enough to call the doctor but enough to keep me indoors in my pyjama's wondering …
October 12, 2009 10:56am
Well of course I had to kick some ass.
I finished my coffee had a quick wash and dressed and got out into the sunshine.
Went for a walk over the …
October 12, 2009 8:32am
I am quite depressed here today....
The sun is shinning for once and all I want to do is sleep... curl up in bed away from everything.
I have today …
October 10, 2009 8:52am
the girls Kitty is travelling with are moving on to fiji after they say goodbye at the airport. So now we get a text that she wants to go with …
October 9, 2009 11:14am
Just got a text message. She had just boarded the coach that will take them from Cairns to Airly Beach. Where tomorrow she goes on a boat …
Good to see your feeling better today. Have a nice weekend. Love & Hugs, Lori
Hope you have been progressively feeling some relief from the darkness of depression.
Thank you Carolin! Yes, indeed. Let's be friends.
Thank you for your kind words. I look forward to hearing from you again.
Sorry your not doing so well today. Hope you feel better soon. Love & Hugs, Lori
Two pills on bad days! Lately I have been having a lot of those... Hope that we both feel some better soon! Also, where I am, the light has a lot to do with my lows. Not so much sun in the winter and it really does affect me! A multi spectrum light for at least a half hour a day can help with that. It could be the season that is making you feel lower than usual. Try getting some light and see if that helps? Huge hugs! Glad I was on this morning!
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It took the doctors four hospital admissions to figure out I was bi polar.
Well I was abused from age of seven. Have to say this ruined my early life as I could not talk to anyone from then on about anything the shame was too great. Spent ten years in Therapy when my daughter was born as I couldn't let this happen to her. Had nothing to do with family for years until I was addmitted to hospital with what turned out to be Bipolar.
Just recently i have started to suffer from anxiety....keep thinking the worst is going to happen. It's a horrible feeling and I just want to stop indoors and avoid doing anything. But I have to go to work. Doctor has given me Diazepam one to be taken daily and it seems to work so far.
Although I am now into middle age, sexual abuse as a child rendered me almost an outcast. I just couldn't open my mouth for fear of saying the wrong thing. And I would blush up anyways. As a result I have only a couple of close friends which is fine as they do most of the talking and I most of the listening, that's how I manage, that's how I've always managed. I am married to a wonderful man who is the life and soul of any party he graces. And I have one beautiful daughter.
I've been depressed for a good number of years now, a lot of it has to do with the abuse I suffered in childhood so I have low self esteem for most of the time and I'm always beating myself up
four times I have been sectioned for delusional disorder. It was a time in my life when I thought I was someone worth hunting down, worth 24 7 media coverage, worth the trouble. It was a time in my life when I felt alive if on the edge. Then came the medication and the return to the quiet life, the lack of persona and any kind of zest for life....Oh how I long to be just a little of the me I once was.
I need to lose 40 pounds full stop. Gonna eat right and do more exercise.
Sexually abused by my own father and from the age of seven till I was married. I know it's hard to believe, but such was his control over me that I had no means of defence and no voice to tell with. Oh yeah I told my mum alright when I was seven and that got me a huge beating and a liar label that's lasted all my life to date. Hey then I got pregnant and was having no more of that shit so I took a knife to him and he cowered away calling me mad. And I was quite mad and wild growing up.
I am an incest survivor and ever since I was a child I've felt alone. I am married now with a gorgeous daughter but still feel that awful emptiness from time to time.
