galed7956's Journal

Well I have Tangie fasting for the 24 hours so that I can feel her the boiled chicken and rice after she fasts to get rid of the diareah.  She lays in front of her food bowl and seeping right now.  I feel so bad because she is used to having food in that bowl all day long.  It's like I'm torturing her and I don't mean to.   We'll get through it.  We're having a cold snap here over the weekend and I have to go downstairs and get my fall/winter sleeping stuff.  Mom brought some of my flannel sheets up but I have some more down there along with my long johns and sleeping/outside stuff.  It's getting near that time again - winter and the holidays.  My right shoulder hurt me bad this morning now.  I am getting an air mattress when I move.  The doc said that after I move he would get me one because of the pain that I am going to have and am having now.  He also asked me the last time I saw him why they sent me home when I had a convulsion in the hospital.  I am seeing him next week to fill out the papers for the Addison's Disease and also ask him some more questions like about the "crisis" needle.  That one day out will probably wipe me out for 2 weeks.  I am still sleeping too much but if that's what I need so be it.  I just made the mistake of clicking on to someone who was threatening to commit suicide.  I have been lucky so far with my friends because they are all so wonderful.  But this one took the cake.  He is into illegal drugs,  threatening to commit suicide,  etc.  He is drunk all he time and has family that has given up on him except his sister.  I took him out of my friends list and sent a message to Doug.  I should go back in and tell him to click into the crisis thing on the bottom of the page but I think he is young and wants the attention.  Anyone that advertises that they are going to have a party with all the different illegal drugs that he can get his hands on plus a dj and party favors for his guests and is estimating the cost of each thing along with the break on the coke he is getting moneywise doesn't deserve to be here.   We are all trying to help each other with legitimate illness's and such - I guess he might be considered one of us but I can't see how he is on here when he is talking about illegal drugs, etc.  He is making himself worse instead of better.  I get a horrible feeling about the drugs.  Don't believe in them or that they solve anything.  Here we sit - including me with how many disease's that we're fighting along with other problems and he is making his situation worse.  Can't accept that on here.  I know that I'm supposed to be more understanding and I am praying to God that he wakes up and  finally understands that God is there for him and also the people on here.  He is an athiest and doesn't want to hear the God word.  I could have copped out many times and smoked marijuna to get relief but I know that in the end that would make me worse.  Well Tangie is getting restless and she wants to eat.  I don't really think that shes eaten anything since 10:00 last night but I wanted her to finish more of her food because of the medicine in it.  Mom said that when she first got up this morning Tangie got up too so I guess she probably ate something.  She is starting to yeowl and looking for food.  She hasn't gone to the bathroom all day so if she did eat it wasn't that much.  Mom has the chicken and rice ready for her.  So later tonight I will start her on the pieces of chicken with the rice.  Hopefully she will get rid of the diareah and that will be one health problem gone from the 3 of us.  I still have gunk in my lungs and mom is gettting a little better.  Well this time of the year we get this stuff going around.  It's supposed to be cold this weekend.  It's supposed to be in the 50's at least one day and then we are going to have our first frost that night.  Then the leaves will really start changing in color.  I love fall and winter because I would rather snuggle in sweaters then fan myself in the summer.  I hate the heat and humidy in the summer - I usually stay in the air conditioning and not go out because it effects the MS.   And now I can't use steroids to treat it if I have a relapse so I have to try to make sure that I do my best not to get a relapse again.   I know what happend to one of my other friends on here now.  She was sexually molested by her brother.  I was sexually molested by a old creep that lived down the street from here when I was around 4 or 5 years old.  I never mentioned it here and never mentioned when my dad was alive because he would have killed him.  I tried to put it out of my mind.  If I would go down the street with my bike when I was older he would wolf whistle at me.  He was disgusting.  I even worked with his 2 sons at the hotel when I waitressed.  They were bartenders.  It never dawned on me because I had pushed it so far out of my mind.  The first time I brought it up was about 2 years ago when there were mormans living down the street next to the house he used to live in.  They had 2 blonde little girls and never checked on where they were during the day and I said that someone could offer them candy and get them in their car then I mentioned that I was molested in the late 50's when no one even mentioned anything like that.  Well I fed Tangie her chicken and rice and she is still working on it - she's gobbling it up!!  It should work because rice is one thing that always binds you up.  She is sure enjoying it.  Well I had better go for tonight.  I'm feeling nauseated again so I had better go to the bathroom and take some Zofran.  I noticed that nausea is one symptom of the Addison's but I hate retching when I have to throw up.  So better go. Lots of prayers and hugss for everyone.  galed7956