galed7956's Journal

I am getting anxious about this appointment tomorrow.   I read more on Addison's disease and didn't like what I read so now the best thing for me to do is find an endicronoligst.  I am supposed to have a needle on me at all times in case of stress (any health problems that would affect the Adrenals) because I could go into a grave form of Addison's which could kill me.  I know I only have it slightly but combining this with everything else is making this disease more prominent.  The weird feelings that I had at the doc's office the other day were right on for people who have Addison's.  The lack of the "Hormones" or "Steroids" controls your sense of well-being.   One guy was stating that he has had terrible anxiety attacks since he got the disease and some people came back with that they didn't but they didn't feel well going out and such.  So now I am changing subjects.  My mother is raging on me again so I got my earphones and put them on turned the volume up and am watching a movie so I don't have to listen to her bitching.  She has been sick for over a week with this crap I got but she refuses to go to the doc.  She is finally going tomorrow and I hope he puts her in the hospital.  Boy will she fight that like a caged wild cat!!!  I gave her a cough drop and she is complaining that her tongue is numb.  I said that it's supposed to numb your throat.  She kept on complaining so I said that if she didn't like what they were doing she could give them back to me.  She was also talking badly about my Father.  I don't want to listen to that.  I hope she takes off on the doc tomorrow so he can see what she is really like.  I have an appointment in the morning at 10:15 and she has one in the afternoon. She has to learn to take care of herself because she won't take anyone elses's advice nor will she do anything about any advice you give her because she says she doesn't understand that stuff.  I told her it's not hard to understand anything but she is the one that doesn't want to understand and that's what started everything.  She want's to be totally taken care of by everyone else so that might still continue but without me.  I have a whole mess of crap of my own to take care of.  I am watching Mrs. Soffel.  It's a movie from the late 80's or something like that.  Diane Keaton and a young Mel Gibson is in it.  I am trying to stay unstressed and not get in an argument with anyone.  Thank God I can get out of this house because of the Electric Wheelchair.  I am so blessed again in that way.  I will probably go down to the Salvation Army for lunch and such when the nurses's stop coming and also when I am cleared of continous doc's appointments.  So far so good with the movie and not being able to hear her.  I am trying my darndest to get ahold of Fitzmorris Agency.  She has called me in the early morning which is doubly bad because of the exhaustion and fatigue from the several diseases that I have.  I am hoping that if I continue to call her that she will call me early tomorrow morning when I am awake getting ready to go to the doc's appointment.  She is supposed to help me with shopping,   getting to appointments ,  cleaning and possibly some side trips to the shore and Atlantic City. The visiting Nurse just called and she is going to finally make an appointment for early next week to change the foley that I am leaking urine from.  The baloon doesn't have enough sterile water in it I guess so the urine is leaking plus the coughing isn't helping any.  Now my printer is making noises.  It's shut off but it has a mind of it's on wether it's on or not.  I don't know if it's cleaning itself or what it's doing.  Maybe there's a ghost in it.  I love it though because it does everything.  Now it's beeping at me so who knows what it wants.  I don't want to use it or turn it on.  This movie is sort of weird because these people live adjacent to a prison and Mel Gibson is wooing Diane Keaton.  Mel Gibson had 7 or 8 kids I think but now he is out of the movie business because of his drinking problems as far as I know.  Well I am signing off now and will enter tomorrow's journal entry with the results of yesterday's blood test and doc's appointment.  galed7956