Journal

Hiya peeps!  Hope this finds everyone doing well.  Just thought I'd pop in and write a quick journal entry. 

All is still going quite well for me.  I'm loving college and am excited about next semester.  I haven't found another job YET but had an interview that went really well last week (with hardly any anxiety or flutters of panic) so I am stoked about that!  Before, I had been having problems with some hotflashes and sudden urges to bolt out of an interview but this one was one of the best I've had.  Even if I don't get the job, I really needed that confidence that I could get through an interview without PANIC! (new positive memories for the brain to latch onto)

I'm a little sick right now.  My niece stayed the night Sunday night and gave me her cold.  I'm trying not to let that get my anxiety up and of course I refuse to take any cold meds.  I hate any kind of medicine that makes me groggy or speeds me up. 

I can't remember if I told about my new puppy or not.  She is a miniature schnauzer.  Her name is Gracie and she's almost 5 months old now.  I got her when she was about 5 weeks.  She was so tiny.  It didn't take long for her to develop her own little personality with attitude.  At first I thought she was possessed by satan because she was so mean but she's a little sweeter now.  She loves to sleep with us and hide in the covers.  She does some of the quirkiest things that keep us laughing. 

Well that's all for now.  Time to study for a test tonight!

Take care!!

Hi everyone!!  It's been a while since I have wrote a journal entry.  I hope this find everyone doing fantastic.  If not, I hope things get better for you real soon! 

As for me, I'm doing great!!  I quit my crappy job that I griped about so much before.  I'm not working at the moment but I have started college.  YAY!  I'm a college girl now!  Well part time anyways.  This is exciting for me because a year ago I would never have even thought that I would be able to attend college.  I  barely even wanted to leave my own home.  I am going for an Associates in  Accounting.  Well, right now it's just a certificate but next year I'll take on more classes and go for the Associates degree.  I didn't want to overwhelm myself with alot of homework and such since it's been nearly 15 years since I was in school.  Next semester there are about 4 classes that I have to take.  I am just so excited about going to college!!! 

We went to the beach last month for  vacation and had a nice time!  Don't think anxiety got in the way of doing anything I wanted to do.  If it did, I just pushed right on through and did it anyway!  That's how I've gotten to where I am now by making myself do things that made me feel uncomfortable but I knew would make me feel better in the end.  And it always does! 

The marriage is going great.  My husband and I rarely ever fight.  I'm very much aware of his love and am happy and content.  The end of 2007 and the beginning of 2008 was very hard on our marriage.  I thought we weren't going to make it.  Thankfully we pulled through.  We've went through so much together before we even got married.  This December will be our 4th anniversary.  YAY! 

My daughter starts school on Monday.  She'll be in the 8th grade.  Ugh!  Next year will be high school.   Not sure what it is about being a teenager that brings out the smart mouth.  Sometimes I just want to fatten her lip.  I hold it back though and remember back to when I was 13.  I was sooooooo much worse than she has ever been.  Thank God she acts NOTHING like I did or I would be in the nut house.  How my mom survived..I have no idea.

My friends and I had a girls night out Saturday night.  This is something that we haven't done in a very long time.  It is also something that I would not have been able to do last year.  We had a terrific time!  It was awesome!  We've decided to do it more often.  We laughed the entire night.  Girls night out is soothing for the soul.  It is nice to know that even though your married, men are still attracted to you, even though you have to shoot them down.    My husband tells me I'm pretty and I usually say "whatever, you're crazy".  So it helps to hear it from someone other than the man that has to sleep with you everynight.  Am I making any sense?  We've decided couples night would be nice too!

Oh yeah, I have a new puppy now named Gracie.  She is mean as hell.  I think I should have named her Lucy...short for Lucifer.  She is evil.  She is a miniature snauzher.  I love when she's sleeping.  That's the only time I can hold her without her shredding my fingers with her little razor teeth.  She is extremely hard to housebreak.  She thinks puppy pads are to take a nap on.  And when she goes outside she comes in all dirty.  She LOVES being outside. 

Well that's a quick version of what's been going on.  My apologies for not keeping up with hugs and journal comments.  It's just that things are so much better for me that I don't want to sit around anymore.  I want to do things.  Enjoy life!  I've learned that if it scares me...do it anyway!!! 

Remember....Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday!!!  Wasn't that bad now was it?

Much love and hugs to all,

Dawn

I have an appt at the Orthoapedic doctor this morning for my back.  I'm leaving in a few minutes and I'm feeling a little anxious.  My back has been hurting for 2 years now and it's only getting worse.  Hopefully I'll find an answer shortly. 

Well I have an Appt next week for an MRI.  I was quite disappointed with the visit this morning.  The Dr. didn't even look at my back.  He checked my reflexes and told me to point to where it hurts.  I also had him to listen to my neck which makes strange noises.  It used to make a snapping noise.  Now it's more like a grinding noise.  He said that it was fine.  I guess it doesn't really matter if he looks at my back or not because he can't tell what's wrong with it just by looking.  He says more than likely it will just take physical therapy to strengthen it.  I guess we'll find out in July when I go back for the results of the MRI.  I'm just so tired of the pain.  My back prevents me from doing alot of things.  Anything that takes walking such as: festivals, shopping, etc just kills me with pain.  By the time I get to the car my back hurts so bad I can barely sit.  And I have to stand all day at work.  It's preventing me from doing my job correctly.  At this point with my job, I really don't care.  They can fire me if they like.  Speaking of work...time to go.