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August 14, 2009 6:13pm
ive found that i havent written in a while i have been rather busy wiith my studies and soon ill be taking the biggest test of my life right now my …
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redblooddrips
7:42pm, September 20, 2009
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About Me
redblooddrips
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About Me
my name is dani im 19 years old and i finally graduated i like to draw and addicted to making things out of duct tape i like any manga or anime and love to read and if you got any good books out there go ahead and recamend them... if youd like to talk to me im me aol-animajnky yahoo- animejnky msn-x0darkangel0x@gmail.com or cheack my myspace and im me that way www.myspace.com/anime_jnky
my name is dani im 19 years old and i finally graduated i like to draw and addicted to making things out of duct tape i like any manga or anime and love to read and if you got any good books out there go ahead and recamend them... if youd like to talk to me im me aol-animajnky yahoo- animejnky msn-x0darkangel0x@gmail.com or cheack my myspace and im me that way www.myspace.com/anime_jnky
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things are getting worse as the dayz goes on trying to be myself although others tug at me people say they care but do they truely? where is the proff that some one cares that some one truely really cares is it in the love that some one shows or is it the person u talk to every single day? i ask these things of my self as i go down my long dark road am i really alive and ment to be? this i ask and it seems not be answered
things are getting worse as the dayz goes on trying to be myself although others tug at me people say
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October 21
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redblooddrips gave BobCJ a hug 12:55pm
Y are u saying sorry u haven't did anything so y? Were just missing each other all the time just sent…
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redblooddrips turned 19 12:00am
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lovy gooy goodness
July 4, 2009 10:08am
so its offical its offical he asked me out well kinda sigh so yeah were going out now! lol im soo happy so its up the count again! i cant ait till he …
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sorry i havent updated lately
May 24, 2009 9:17am
wow this is small... any way im doing good birthday is tomarrow cant wait im finally graaduating too
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Close Depression
Ive been trying to fight depression sense i was 7 when My older sister tryed to kill her self... she didnt succed. i try to be around sirten people when i break down and it often leads to self injery
Treatments
- Writing Working / Worked
- ive been writting a couple of stories and it helps a bit when im thinking about thing and all
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- it only works some times.. but some times it makes things worse when i get fustrated and start to see a blob of read or blood read slash it makes things worse...
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- it brings up my spirits
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- i mostly talk to friends that i trust and a few adults at school trying to calm down in the times i get over a panic attack caused by things that upset me.
- Writing Working / Worked
- ive been writting a couple of stories and it helps a bit when im thinking about thing and all
Close Self-Injury
Im trying to keep my self from cutting and other forms of pain related injerys When these this happen i usally try to hide it But it seems that people dont look at things that lead to self injurt the depression and lonelyness the need to feel like your alive but u cant feel any thing some times im scared i will go to far ive tryed to stop about a total of 9 times so far but things happen but then again it could relate to how long ive been doing it for about 7 years starting when my sis try 2 die
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- it only works some times.. but some times it makes things worse when i get fustrated and start to see a blob of read or blood read slash it makes things worse...
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- it great talking to people that have similar problems that i have im feeling better about my self
- Rubber Bands Working / Worked
- this only gives a temproay relieaf from the cutting or trying to do self harm but it works untill the band brakes...
- Talking Working / Worked
- i try to talk out or contact one of my friends before i have the need to act.. but be for i found out this worked i distenced my self from people
- Writing Working / Worked
- ive been writting a couple of stories and it helps a bit when im thinking about thing and all
Open Pyromania
for some reason ive always been fasinated with fire. although i havent gotten so bad that i light things like houses on fire... but i always carry a lighter with me
Treatments
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- man... i just love playing with fire... but i dont burn.. just rather love playing with it.. but it help to talk here
Open Panic Attacks
my panic attacks lead to si....
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
we are told to listen to our parents right? well ive been told my who life sence i could understand that i was useless.... things are going over board...
Open Bereavement - Teens
i lost my great grand father... he was my best friend he would understand what i was going through... i also lost a dear friend who killed him self after his mother kicked him out of the housse...
Open Multiple Personalities
my friends ask me whats the matter what happened and i really dont no... they tell me that its almost like im 3 differnt people... my friend josh gave them names at one point.. dark, angel, and nothing.... nothings is the one who wants to hurt me... it scares me some this but i cant remember what happens when dark or nothing comes out....
Open Phobia
ever sence i was young ive been afraid of thunderstorms. there would be a storm and i would just freez up not able to move... start crying and i dont no what to do im scared.. i loose sleep over it if theres a storm at night...
Open Sex / Pornography Addiction
its hard to talk about
Open Breakups & Divorce
i just hve bad luck i guess...:( none of my relationships seem to last...V.V
Treatments
Open Sports Injuries
I GUESSI CAN CALL THIS A SPORTS INJURY... BUT IHVE RIPED TENDENTS IN M KNEE FROM BAND,,, IT IS A SPORT BUTBEENWALKING /MARCHINGON IT FOR 6 MONTHS... HAVENT GOT IT FIXTED OR ANYTHIG
