Journal

I went to the doctor friday the 26th and sorry i didnt write sooner but i wasnt happy. Anyway he just said everthing looks fine when i asked aboutt he fusion. I have heard that before.

All he cared was that hardware was still good. I asked him about all this tailbone pain and told him i have had actual sores like the bone was actually coming out and i have to say he did look but as soon as he made sure it wasnt hardware everything was fine.

AND I AM SO MAD THAT HE TOLD ME I WAS GOOD TO GO I DONT HAVE TO GO BACK UNLESS I HAVE SOME PAIN???? WHAT IS THAT???

Anyway this swelling in feet and my shoulder huting so bad  and also alot of numbness in hands and the pain in left leg isnt anything??? He didnt care as long as everything about the stupid hardware and before surgery things were all better?? Sorry i am still so mad.

I ask for meds cause i have been hurting and all he says is i want your PCP doctor to do that now and i tell him that doctor wont give me anything but tramadol and let me tell you that is a joke.

And just to top it off like on my shin the front of the bottom of left leg and foot hurt so bad at a b-day party i was lucky to walk to the bathroom it was hurting.

Im back after good old IKE we only had some siding off and the shutters and kids trampoline. Hubby stayed here at a friends house and i went with my sister and her family to mississippi.

We got back sunday and i sent the kids away where they had a generator and hubby and i stayed here. We had a cold front come in ( that why i am hurting so bad).

Although we are lucky not alot has happened Cameron Parish had alot of flooding. Its so sad and to think of it my trailer is about 10 miles away from where all the flooding ended. We got all our electricity back monday evening.

I have missed DS alot.

I want  to go to work so bad i havent worked in 6 years. I thought it would be possible the other day i felt so good. Well kids and i went walking and stubborn  me wanted to go a little further so we did i had to stop and rest then walk and kept on repeating the same thing. Well i was hurting in my legs so bad i was down for 2 or 3 days. So we went walking last night and it starting hurting in the shin of left leg so i didnt push again we just turned around then and came home. And also yesterday i kept feeling like something stinging me in the back where the hardware is and i got the kids to look they didnt see anything.

My neice sent me a text message this morning asking if i am going to go to her ball game tonight and i couldnt answer her cause last time i went it liked to kill me on the bleachers. Between the tailbone pain and my legs hanging.

So anyway all this has me thinking if i did go back to work what i would have a good day then if i overdo it then i wouldnt be able to go back due to hurting so bad? Just aggervating . Sorry this is a gripping entry but its alot easier than dumping this on hubby sorry.

Thanks