Journal

I'm so miserable right now.  I can't remember the last time I felt so bad.  Right now, my hustband is so pissed off at me and I don't even know why.  His response the everything is to get angry and mean.  I literally hate him right now.  We have a son together, Justin, age 10.  So, I can't get away from him.  Otherwise, I think I would just pack my bags and go.  But, he has already told me he would fight me to the bitter end to get full custody of Justin. 

 I am in total despair.  My health is really bad.  My weight is really, really low as I've been on a juice fast for almost 2 weeks.  I just want to die.  I'm shutting down entirely.  I don't want to be around anyone.  I don't want to do anything.  I just want it to all end.