Journal Entry for September 10, 2008
September 10, 2008 4:25am
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Phill 
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About Me
Phill
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About Me
I study in college , I'm 22. What can I say about my philosophy , I believe in treating everyone equally, with compassion and understanding. Most of my views are quite liberal. My passion is languages. I speak about 14 and want to learn more. Unfortunately I suffer from axniety and a certain level of depression. I absolutely love meeting other people who suffer from the same problems cause I find my symptoms quite isolating. Most people don't understand how I feel.
I study in college , I'm 22. What can I say about my philosophy , I believe in treating everyone equally, with compassion and understanding. Most of my views are quite liberal. My passion is languages. I speak about 14 and want to learn more. Unfortunately I suffer from axniety and a certain level of depression. I absolutely love meeting other people who suffer from the same problems cause I find my symptoms quite isolating. Most people don't understand how I feel.
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Journal Entry for July 28, 2008
July 28, 2008 3:54am
Things are not good. I'm supposed to go on a trip to Turkey today. Last night there was a huge terrorist attack there. More attacks …
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Thanx for the hug Phil Hope your day is going well for you. We haven't had a chance to chat yet but hopefully we will sooner rather than later T/C x
Go For It
i notice that you have been to college did you have a good experience or not cause i am thinking about taking a class or two any input would be nice.
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Go For It
i notice that you have been to college did you have a good experience or not cause i am thinking about taking a class or two any input would be nice.
Hug
Hi my friend . You can for now incnore my last hug mesage about the problem with my pc . It seams I have sorted it but should it happen again you know what to do.
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Close Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
My grandfather died of stomach cancer last summer. We didn't get along but it still effected me very much resulting in a severe major deppressive episode.
Close ADHD / ADD
I have problems focusing and I'm hyper , I don't know if it's classic ADHD or if it's caused by anxiety or both. Annyways it's such a frikin drag , I hate having this problem , everyone thinks it's my fault I can't focus while I'd do everything to be able to.
Treatments
- Dexedrine Working / Worked
- Worked but made feel really anxious and paranoied. I had to get off in the withdrawal resulted in a very severe deppressive episode.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I sometimes get classic obsessive thoughts but I mainly struggle with quite an atypical form of OCD. I worry eccessively about a number of issues and when it gets out of control I can't stop thinking about these things (hence the term obsessive) and it consumes a lot of my energy and causes a lot of frustration. It's aslso extremely hard not being understood by others.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- The therapist was very inexperienced and simply kept convicing me to stop obsessing. The nature of obsessive thoughts is that you can't stop them. That's why it didn't make sense.
- Luvox Not Working
- It helps with severe depressive episodes but not with the obsessions.
Open Shyness
I get really tense in social situations , especially in unfamiliar ones involving young people (sorry I must admit it , young people tend to be way more judemental). In those unfamiliar or potentially harmful situations I feel like I'm frozen. I stutter , it's hard for me to make good eye contact and my voice can get a bit shaky. I also get really tired and sleepy or get a headache afterwords.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Getting support from understanding people can make a huge difference. In this case it won't take the problem away but it helps deal with the stress.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- The therapist was very inexperienced and din't know much about all these problems.
- Self-esteem Not Working
- No matter how many times I "tell myself" that I am smart , interesteing and stuff , I still get tense and insecure in those social situations.
Open Depression
I think I can say a suffer from dysthymia which is a mild but chronic type of depression. I also had a few episodes of extremely severe depression that lasted from a few days to a few weeks , but they were so intense they seemed like centuries. I think my mild depression is very much connected to my anxiety. I feel frustrated about being anxious and that effects my daily mood.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Considering
- I tried it before , the therapist was very inexperienced and didn't help at all but I want to try again
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- It helps a very tiny bit when my mood is just a bit low. When the depression gets more intense it definitely does not work.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- As I said , I tried it before and it didn't wokr but I want to try again.
Open Insomnia
I've been suffergin from insomnia for some time now. I believe it might be caused by certain meds but I'm not exactly sure.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- I've used it one time but I stay away from benzos as much as possible. They're nothing good.
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- When I can't sleep I got so tense, simple relaxation techniques don't work.
- Lunesta Working / Worked
- I use it a lot of the time and it works mirracles but I'm afrad of developig tolerrance or dependence.
- Meditation Not Working
- It helps me relax and become less tense but not actually fall asleep.
- Music Not Working
- It worked initially but as my insomnia got more intense, it stopped doing the trick.
- Reading Not Working
- Just gives me a headache.
