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FrustratedDaughter 
So here I am again. It's been like 4 months since I last really felt a need to get the clutter in my mind out plus I've just been super busy trying to handle my day to day life with kids, school, work, maintaining my home and also to give my very deserving husband the atention he needs. So to why I'm really back on here venting to an online journal, my mother. She just never ceases to amaze me with her lack of respect, selfishness and her inability to listen. She has recently taken up the "Get Hillary elected" cause and is insistant that her friends and family should be on board with her. I think it's great that she is passionate about this election, it's an exciting time but for me I don't have the time, energy or want to attend all the local rallys, make phone calls or stick propaganda on people's doors. I have told her several times now that have no desire to help her with this cause (to me my political views are very private-kinda like sex and religion) but mainly that I have no spare time (I should add that my kiddos, her grandkids, have been sick with everything from Strep throat, flu, stomach bug, etc in the last month) but she refuses to hear me saying "NO MORE". She actually volunteered my to make phone calls to people in my precinct after I flat out said no. So now I'm pissed! This is the kind of shit that just sets me off. My mom and I have a strained realtionship on a good day but when she pulls crap like this I just want to cut her out of my life. I have decided to go back into therapy to try and find a way to help me deal with her. I am scared that if I don't do something I will make an irrational decision while I'm mad and our realtionship will be screwed beyond reapir. This is my mother and I want to have a healthy, adult relationship with her. I have also opted for therapy again because my kids have seen and heard me loose my temper with my mom and what is that teaching them? Plus, when she gets to me I get in "idiot mode" and this takes some time to get out of and during that time I am easily angered (not violent but I do snap at my kids and husband for stupid stuff). I feel weighed down, sad, frustrated, confused, the list can go on and on and I do not like it. I am typically a happy person that is greatful for the life that I have so to swing the other direction it tears me up inside. After the last blow up that I had with my mom, which was just a couple of days ago, my husband and I were talking and he asked me if I knew the definition of insane, I said no and he said "it's doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results" this made me realize it's time for something different. No more banging my head against the same damn wall! 
