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mistycat 
2:59pm, September 13, 2008
I dont know why, but I have fallen into this big black hole again.
Don;t know if I have the energy to climb back out this time, I am struggling badly at the moment.
No one care, no one give a damn, I am so lonely just wish someone would put me down.
How does that song go "make the world go away"
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Tomorrow, the 7th August is the aniversary of my mums death. It was 2 years ago but it feels like yesterday, I miss her so much.
I think I will just have a very quiet day and go somewhere we both liked to visit, so happy memories may bring her closer to me.
Mum if you can hear me I love you and miss you so much, why did you have to leave me
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That is what I do on the anniversary of my mothers death go somewhere and just remember the woman she was. It is hard to lose your mother.
Its my birthday on Monday and it is coming up for the second aniversary of my mums death, so I feel a bit rough.
It is also only a few weeks since my friend died of a heart attack I will be the same age as her so I am wondering how much longer I have left, silly I know but it cannot get it out of my head.
Funny thing, it does not frighten me at all, I am very calmly planing what I need to do, sounds crazy but to me its what I should be doing, hey I am going insane, oh well never mind.
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You are not going insane hon. I also wonder how long I have left before I go home and I am not afraid of death, so I do understand. If you need to talk I am here.
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Do you feel you are close to the age you're Mum passes away at? Why do you feel the same will happen to you. Hun..you are grieving, let yourself grieve..do't analyze it..it just happened.okay? Hugs
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I think we all wonder that.I'm not scared either.But it's even more natural for you given your recent loss and the anniversary of your mum.Hugs x
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Oh yeas Earnie Arnold, oh shit I think it just got stuck in my head ahahahahagggg oh well I'll have ta send ya a hug caus U might not C this 4 a while
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