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Pulpit 
11:57pm Thursday
O for goodness sake. What is the point of all this anyway? I am so miserable but can't seem to get the whole "misery" feeling out, not even a bit. Makes me so mad. I wouldn't have a problem just tossing all my meds over the balcony, but I can't take the chance of being sick again, this really sucks!!! I am sick of being sick and always feeling blahhhh. I am on so many meds I can't even tell which one is the culprit anymore and I feel very blahhhh and soon it needs to end or else......!!! I long to be alone by myself forever but I can't, before I was so drugged up I used to be a social butterfly, I'd forgotten about that since people have been dragging me out of my comfort zone. I could stay at home forever, just me and me. I wish I didn't have so much thinking going on in my mind, it makes me swirl. Hopefully I will come to my senses and just get over it, ha......we'll see.
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Sorry you're feeling badly. Just give the mood a chance to pass, It will.It's hard but it's best to live moment by moment. Keep those precious grand kids of yours on your mind.They need you and love you. And so do I. Feel better.
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