Pulpit's Journal

Being tired is no fun

When you are the only one

To fall asleep during church

And wake up to a birds loud chirp

Oh I long to close my eyes

And see notthing but dark gray skys

But I am in the here and now

To do what is expected of me somehow?

When will this roller coaster ever stop

To slow down enough to let me off?

I feel like I am on the outside of my world

I can't get in, it makes my head twirl!

I have been gone away

much too long

Now I am lost

Can't find my way home!

Wait, wait, is that you I see

That all familiar face that means so much to me?

Yes, yes it is you

Coming to walk me home with you

I am so thankful for all my DS friends

I pray that we stay together until the end

I need you and you need me

And...together we are a family   Amen!

I am so happy to be home finally and back on line again!   It has been very tough not having you's here for support.  I had many meltdowns because I couldn't get on here to talk to anyone.  I am so thankful for the computer shop I belong to, they have provided me with this monitor I am writing on until mine is fixed, what a blessing!

The past couple of weeks and expecially last week, I had a hard time being out on my own in the world.  I was very busy and was travelling alot, which wears me out physically and emotionally.  That triggers my bp signals to go ahead and be cranky and negative...aaahhh!  That makes me feel worse every time I do it.

There was many "stupid" people in my way last week....gggggrrrr!   I felt like I was in a world I didn't belong in, what an awful feeling to be lost outside of your home and DS family!  I am busy again today with church too.  Tommorow may be a better day?  I feel like I don't belong in my world anymore.  *sigh*  I feel like a misfit!  I only feel like I belong here on DS.

Thanks for all the hugs and messages while I was gone.  I feel very loved!

Love and Prayers  Ramona  oxxoxoxoxoxo