Journal Entry for November 7, 2009
November 7, 2009 4:10am
O for goodness sake. What is the point of all this anyway? I am so miserable but can't seem to get the whole "misery" …
Pulpit
11:57pm Thursday
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About Me
Pulpit
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About Me
I am bipolar 1. Some times are wonderful...sometimes are good...sometimes are awful! Right now I feel blahhhhhh!
I am bipolar 1. Some times are wonderful...sometimes are good...sometimes are awful! Right now I feel blahhhhhh!
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Interests
My 2 beautiful grandbabies mean the world to me! When I get to the end of my rope I remember them!
My 2 beautiful grandbabies mean the world to me! When I get to the end of my rope I remember them!
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Another strike my way....
September 12, 2009 3:23am
Well, I just got home from visiting my family for 2 weeks. First week went fine with my grandbabies until the second day when I got this …
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Journal Entry for May 18, 2009
May 18, 2009 11:51am
Well here I go again. I am off the see my grandbabies and my sick brother. Feeling really lousy from my med change. Well …
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Running
May 11, 2009 2:03pm
This it is, I see it in the distance,
the bush, the trees, the woods,
Oh how long will it take to make it there?
I've always chided myself for …
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Shout Out
Give it a chance to leave your system, silly. How are ya? I missed you again. :( Have a good night Ramona, Love ya xoxoxoxo
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See You Later
Sorry I missed you I was looking at a video on you tube. xoxoxxo
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Little Love
A little yes. And how are you? xx
Hug
Love you and thinking of you always sweetheart. xxx
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Prayer
What's up? Why the sad face? I hope everything's ok. Love ya kiddo. xoxoxoxo
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Close Bipolar Disorder
Was diagnosed with Bipolar in 1997 after a 2 day study at a sleep clinic. My GP started me on meds but didn't tell me why. I found out in 2003 about Bipolar. In 2004 I started seeing a phyciatrist (by request) At first he said he didn't think I had bipolar. I was on Hep C treatment at this time and also on 3 anti-depressents. 3yrs ago I went off all my meds. Still seeing my phyciatrist also. I went on a med free 15 mnth high then CRASHED! Started back on meds again in March 2007..aaahhh!
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Just started
- Clonazepam Too Soon to Tell
- Trying again..
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Saw a therapist for 2 years. Couldn't get a grasp on his therapy, maybe was not ready for this type of therapy? Stopped going for now.
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- Started taking March 2008. Took 100mg daily and now up to 200mg daily. Working wonderful with my other meds, especially the Lithium.
- Lithium Working / Worked
- Started this med 18 months ago. Spent the first three months with death like symptoms..UGH! The first month I stopped rapid cycling..this med didn't work on it's own so we spent a few months trying to find something to add and Lamictal is the med that works well for me with the Lithium.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I have been going to Psychotherapy for about a year now...I didn't open up until just recently...he says because of trust issues...he's right. I have found this very helpful to recognize my different negative emotions but I also have a hard time actually taking in all the past stuff...you know...I just want to focus on the future. I went because my pdoc asked me too and I think it may help in the long run.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Seroquel has been a hard med to overcome the side effects and I still get morning hang over but the benefits of a good nights sleep far outway the side effects. I take Trazadone with it for sleep.
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
- I took this med a couple of years ago but it didn't help. I started taking it again a couple of weeks ago at a low dose for sleeping and together with the Seroquel I am now sleeping through the night.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I keep track of my moods and my meds on line. I have a medical journal I keep also. These things have been handy to take to my pd appts.
Close Hepatitis C
Been sick since my early 20's. Was diagnosed with Hep C in 1995. Yahooo....finally know why I was so sick all the time. Did treatment in 2004 and Hep C negative since that time. Still feeling all the symptoms I had before treatment. Very frustrating!
Treatments
- Interferon, pegylated Working / Worked
- Did Pegatron in 2004 for 6mnths and been negative since.
Open Interstitial Cystitis (IC)
I was diagnosed with IC in 1997.
Treatments
- Ditropan Working / Worked
- Yes. I have been taking for 5yrs. It helps control the frequency.
Open Tinnitus
I started getting ringing in the ears in my early 20's. Didn't think much about it over the years. Alot of times when I get this ringing now it is so extremely loud that I feel my brain will explode! I also noticed that I hear lots of background noise and it is very distracting, I have to really focus on listening to hear the conversation around me. Background noise disrupts my thinking so it is very hard to stay in the moment when I am distracted by all these loud sounds.
Open Obesity
I don't have the energy to talk long, just to let you know I have gained around 70pounds over the past few years. Before this never had a weight issue. I am on Bipolar meds. which probably cause some to this awful damage! I always feel "fat" and am desperately seeking help!
