BasketMoon's Journal

Only 9 days to go now.  Making my final trip to town before the cruise today.  Picking up some groceried to leave for the kids...Ira and Jo are staying here with the critters while we are gone....and some travel size bath products.

I seem to have picked up my usual fall cold....coughing, runny nose, watery eyes, etc.  I think I've just worn myself down trying to do too much lately and not sleeping.  I think I got an hours sleep night before and about 2 hours last ngiht.  Anyway, hitting it with some echinacea and goldenseal and hoping it goes away.  Hate to be on the ship and feeling like crap. 

I think Darrel's sister finally took the "hint".  Earlier in the week, I had emailed her and told her I was just exhausted and hurting from all the stress lately and that was why I wasn't answering her phone calls.  Yeah....I have problems saying "no" sometimes.  I have a tendency to worry about how someone else is feeling rather than myself in a situation like this.  So I drop little "hints".  I know she is aware of the fibro because she helped me educate Darrel about it.  Some people don't get hints though....you gotta just hit them upside the head with reality.

I have been having so much trouble sleeping the last couple of nights.  I flip and flop, not able to get comfortable.  Even medicated myself to the point where I couldn't even read or keep track of a movie and still couldn't sleep.  I finally jacked my bed up into a semi-sitting position and finally fell asleep last night.  THEN Bear, bless his heart....let the dogs out when he got up....he let Yona back in.  And my alpha male, Tatanka, decides to come to my bedroom door to get let back inside and got Yona to barking until I got up and let him in.  I thought "Tanka" had let himself out.  He opens the screen doors if we don't lock them.    When I saw that Bear was up and had probably let"Tanka" out, I was instantly pissed off! 

God...I hate it when I am like this...short tempered with little patience for ignorant and thoughtless people.  AND I have to go shopping today!!  God help anyone that I have to come in contact with.  I really do feel sorry and wish I could stop it but when I feel like this, I react without thinking.  Poor Bear catches most of it.  That is why I try just to hibernate when I feel like this, but with all I have going on, there is just no way I can do that right now.  I'm hoping that I can get a few days rest between now and the cruise.

Yes....I know, I'm just helping the dragon beat me up!