She's bi!!!!
September 16, 2009 12:11pm
After all hte waiting and debating about wether or not to tell my family, My path has been cleared. Now is the time. I've been given the sign. …
Goal Completed on Sep 16, 09
WnaBaSXEMAagn
6:57pm, August 28, 2009
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About Me
WnaBaSXEMAagn
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About Me
Mother of two sets of twins. Now married to a wonderful man, who accepts me completely. I still sometimes have a hard time accepting myself. I've been thru much trauma, but am looking to find happy experiences to help me grow and use life's harsh dealings to my advantage.
Mother of two sets of twins. Now married to a wonderful man, who accepts me completely. I still sometimes have a hard time accepting myself. I've been thru much trauma, but am looking to find happy experiences to help me grow and use life's harsh dealings to my advantage.
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Interests
I love writing poetry, belly-dancing, cooking, and ANYTHING involving alternative/complementary medicine. I'm very happy in my marriage, and the fact that it's so open, but having a GF wouldn't hurt. ^_~ http://www.dailystrength.org/groups/queer-ladies
I love writing poetry, belly-dancing, cooking, and ANYTHING involving alternative/complementary medicine.
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So far so good...
July 25, 2009 12:25pm
Things are good. I can't complain. I'm glad I got the Mirena. It may be fighting with the Lupron in me, but it was worth it. My energy is …
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A lil closer still...
July 9, 2009 2:27am
Ok, so i know i should b happy, but I can't help but feel it was artificial, cuz i was peeved @ hubby. I met this girl in a chat room. We …
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Guess who called/texted???
July 7, 2009 10:55am
So check it, my "gf" who I wrote about in last update, decided she wants me back. And you know what i decided?
I told her kick …
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Maybe....
June 19, 2009 11:25am
Maybe Maybe today, things will be different. Maybe tomorrow, I'll see the sun through these clouds.Maybe someday, my pain won't be …
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Hugbook
Thanks
I am, just couldn't remember my password for this site. Now I am back.. How are you?
Chocolate
thanks for the hug i am not doing to bad doing a little shopping for new skirt and blouse
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Well hello! lol im doin good got a new tattoo how have you been?
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Hug
lol thanks :) How have you been?
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Hey thanks :-) yeah pleasing people isn't really my thing. Thank you so much that's exactly what I needed to hear
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Support Groups
Close Rape
Was molested by my cousin when I was 8 and raped by my fiance when I was 19. Working through the 2 is more difficult than I planned.
Treatments
- Herbal Magic Working / Worked
- I find that when I practice my Hedgewitchery that Im more in tune with myself and the workings of the world.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I only went a few times, but going to her made me realize, I had to deal with everything (the molestation, child abuse, and abandonment) to have an unhindered recovery from the rape AND these other traumas.
- Rape Counseling Considering
- Talking Working / Worked
- I find the more I talk about my experiences, the easier they are to deal with, emotionally. I don't break down every time I talk about it anymore, so I must be getting close.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Being here has helped infinitely.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- As hard as it may be this was the one thing that truly worked for me. Forgiving not only them but myself was probably the best thing I couldve ever done in my recovery. You live what you learn right? True as this is people can and do change.
Close Depression
I suffered from a long bout of depression after a fallout with my mother stemming from a ton of unresolved childhood issues and anger, and the birth of 2 pr. of twins.
Treatments
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- It was a little bit of a help... it took away the bad feelings mostly, but i still felt... numb, u know? Like I wasn't depressed, but I wasn't happy either... Make sure you have yourself weaned off before stopping, no matter what the doc says. the side effects otherwise are horrible.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Meditation along with hypnosis was one of the big factors in my overcoming depression. There is a self-hypnosis program I downloaded from the internet. If you'd like to know more, ask, please. That, a good self-hypnosis book of suggestion, and a "prayer closet" (if you need an explanation, msg me) is the key to healing successfully and completely.
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- I took it during high school after being diagnosed as a possible manic depressive. they gave it to me on a trial basis. felt a little light-headed and got headaches @ 1st, but it was temporary.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- I tried keeping with positive company, daily affirmations,but it soon felt like a chore, more than uplifting.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- You know love when you've had a child give you his shoulder to cry on. I'd always been taught to put on a happy face for them, but if my mom had cried more often in front of me, I think I would've seen her more humane side sooner, and not held such resentment for so long. I lost my family of origin, but with that I gained a whole new family of choice. Though not the one I was born with, my current family has inspired me to live on my own terms, with no regret, yet love for all things.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I'm sure if I would've kept a journal as vigilantly as I did in HS the treatments would have been more effective.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- Also taken during high school, this medicine was not as harsh as Paxil, with the headaches and all, but then these 2 are use for different symptoms, anyhow.
Open Military Families
My husband is in the US Navy and we've been married for about 5 yrs., known each other since HS. and have 4 kids together. Since marriage, he's been dp'd 1x, during a pregnancy. It was difficult, especially since I had no family around.
Open Bisexuality
I came out in HS, but was forced to hide my sexuality from my kids, by my mother. Since our "divorce," I have come out, again, and am trying to find happiness, again.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- I'm almost completely healed of my past hurts and brainwashing that forced me back into the closet years ago.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My husband is the most understanding person I know. He accepts me for who I TRULY am. Ive also raised my kids to be very tolerant and open of people who may be different. Seeing how they react in these situtaions makes me more comfortable with having a gf around them someday.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Being a member here has strengthened me infinitely. Ive found so many friends here and DS has become another part of my family. Thanks Doug for making this site possible!
Open Twins, Triplets & More
I am a mother of two sets of twins!! Hoping there are ppl out there who have tips and advice for a mom-of-twins *~*Blessings*~*
Open Arthritis
I have been having arthritic symptoms since 16. They were sparse at first and harldy noticeable, now almost unbearable.
Treatments
- Glucosamine/Chondroitin Somewhat Helpful
- It would work for a little bit, but heaven forbid i forgot to take it.... I was in a world of trouble. No side effects tho which i loved. :)
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- I loved that it worked, hated that i had to wait about 30 mins. for relief during an attack. Unless taken as preventative, was not good for on-the spot treatment. Not to mention, if I took it at full-prescription strength, I might as well cancel my day plans. It was a very good sedative for me.
- Naproxen Somewhat Helpful
- It worked for a while then stopped. I used Aleve. It said it worked for 12 hrs., but i found myself searching fo a buffer after 8 hrs.
- Swimming Working / Worked
- If swimming in a bathtub counts, it was wonderful, just make sure you keep moving after you get out of the water. No sitting down to dry-off.
- Tylenol Somewhat Helpful
- Nowhere near as effective as IBF, but not too bad. My only beef is that i had to take it more often than IBF, but w/o the sedation.
- Walking Working / Worked
- Walking not only took my mind from the pain but made it more manageable until i sat down.... lol! It was very hard to get back up!
- Heat Working / Worked
- Great when it was on hell when it was gone.
- Massage Working / Worked
- Very good unless the person has rough hands...LOL!
Open Endometriosis
I was diagnosed @ 23, but have been suffering all my menstrual life. Hoping they find a cure soon as I have 3 daughters. I wouldn't want them to suffer as I have.
Treatments
- Aygestin Not Working
- Not even close to helpful!!!! I was supposed to take this for "add back therapy" and it actually made this worse, as if that's an easy task!
- Laser Surgery Somewhat Helpful
- I had about a good year after it, w/o the pain from endo. But found, during the surgery, I'd developed fibroids too. It took me a while to recover from the pain. Longer than they thought. Never again.....
- Lupron Somewhat Helpful
- Ok...... heres the deal. I found this stuff is only supposed 2 B used 4 ONLY 6 mos. out of any1's lifetime. My doc was the 1 who told me its 6 mos. @ a time. I was injected 4 about 1 1/2 years continuously. Now I have endo pain, fibroids AND arthritic symptoms 2 deal with. I've recently undergone another 6 mo. dosage 2 prep 4 Novasure. It was 2 much 4 my body and mentality. I interrupted this round right after the 2nd dose 2 get some hormones back via Mirena, b4 my life and marriage were ruined.
- Mirena Working / Worked
- Once you get past the first week, the cramping is sparse/non-existant. There was a little dizziness and nausea after insertion, but nothing major. For me it was like labor pains all over again. Despite that I'd do it again in a heartbeat! My sex drive is back, no more injections, and best of all, I'm pain-free. After years of suffering with this, Mirena is like mana to me!
- NuvaRing Not Working
- Worked for my irregular periods, but pain went nowhere. Maybe made it worse.
- Ortho Evra Not Working
- I took this after Depo-provera, as a higher estrogen alternative. NOT GOOD!!! I developed many cysts on my ovaries and itchy sensitive skin, under the patch areas after usage. Not to mention, I was diagnosed with endo after taking this. I'm pretty sure this worsened it, at least to the point of recognition. I learned after this treatment that estrogen feeds endo. Never again for me!
- Provera Not Working
- I took this before, and after, having my 1st set of twins and was diagnosed with endo after taking this. Not sure if the symptoms were made worse by this, but it certainly didn't help. My hair was falling out, and random aches started happening.
- Surgery Somewhat Helpful
- Surgery was great after healing, but relief only lasted about a year for me.
Open Parenting Big Kids (5-8)
I have 2 sets of twins, who are now 8 yrs old. The other set is almost 3 yrs. I homeschool them and am just looking for support. :)
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- Listening Working / Worked
- always listen to them... What they say might surprise you. :)
- Patience Working / Worked
- This is mandatory!!!
Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)
I have 2 sets of twins. The youngest are almost 3. The older 2 are 8 yrs old.
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- Patience Working / Worked
- Play Therapy Working / Worked
- Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My very first long-term relationship end because of emotional,physical, and sexual abuse. It still haunts me sometimes.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Leave Working / Worked
- Worked for the most part, before anything got to violent. The sexual and emotional abuse still linger sometimes, surfacing every now and then in my relationship. But my husband is supportive to the max, so it's a work in progress. It's movin in the right direction tho....
- Music Working / Worked
- I love all music!!! It definitely helps me get out of whatever I'm in. The melody, the lyrics, all aspects of it help me get out those feelings built up. I've also considered writing music.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Thinking it might be better to go back to counseling. I tried it briefly once, but couldn't afford to continue. I think it was working but I'm not sure I was in it long enough to tell.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Talking to friends helped sometimes, but he made sure to keep me from my friends and fam, making me think he was all I had. He wouldn't buy a phone for us so unless I wen to the gas station, I had no way of talking to anyone, other than the landlord. and roommates.
- Poetry Working / Worked
- Writing poetry always helps me release built up anger or frustration.
Open Sexual Abuse
I have an extensive history of sexual abuse in my family. Healing, but I could still use some support.
Treatments
Open Incest Survivors
My bro and I carried on an incestuous relationship for a few years after we were molested by our cousins.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- Ive never really talked about it much to anyone. I always felt it was too shameful. Ive been working at it.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- After forgiving myself my brother and my mother for not interfering sooner Im pretty close to being healed of my shame. Im starting to see the method for our madness i guess you could say.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- It was the hardest thing to open up to my hubby about it but Im glad I did. He was my brothers best friend. So for him to accept me after knowing that and other details of my life... Its the greatest gift I couldve ever been given in this life. My friends now are true friends and not just for show. My children know about my abuse and are very supportive when mommy is just a little sad. Im fortunate to have such a strong support system. I only hope I can help others dealing with this.
