fallenprincess

Open Self-Injury

I've been self harming since I was 11yo. When my mum found out she thought it would be something I'd grow out of so never bothered to try and help me or get me any outside help. My self harming became severe when I was 14 and I slowly had to learn how to control my urges. If things are going really bad or really good I still cut.

Treatments

Group Therapy Not Working

Too shy to share anything with.

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

Still in counseling, but when its all falling through like it is now I struggle to keep going.

Red Marker Somewhat Helpful

Keeps me going without cutting just that little bit longer.

Squeezing Ice Not Working

I just want to eat it!

Tattoos Working / Worked

One way that always helps me the most. I need to feel the pain to remind me I'm still alive in this hell, this way it looks pretty instead of unsightly scars. I've had a large part of my arm which is covered in scars covered with a tattoo to try and stop me from cutting.

Open Alcoholism

I'm a recovering alcoholic, haven't drank since 11th March 2007.

Treatments

12 Step Program Not Working

I was conned into thinking I was doing the 12 steps with the help of a male online sponsor. Just a conversation with this man was enough to make a 20 year sober person start drinking again. He caused me so much unnecessary stress, will NEVER attempt the 12 steps again.

AA Meetings Not Working

Aaaaaggggghhhhhh Never again, hated every minute. Not very helpful, could make the happiest person in the world suicidal. The AA is a brainwashed set of people who will grind you down till you are so exhausted you can't think for yourself anymore.

Campral Working / Worked

I think its worked, I haven't taken it for quite some time now and I'm not drinking either.

Willpower Working / Worked

My sobriety is down to plain all willpower and believing in myself. I'm determined that no matter what members of the AA have said to me about failing because I'm not doing it their way, I WILL prove them wrong!

Open Diets & Weight Maintenance

Need to lose weight and keep at a maintained weight instead of a yo-yo weight. I was seriously underweight as a young child right up into adulthood, refusing to eat because I didn't like food. Over the last 10 years I have turned the total opposite and am now seriously overweight and its a constant battle to get my weight back down to what I class as acceptable.

Treatments

Counting Calories Not Working

Became totally obsessed with counting calories, more so than eating properly

Eating Healthier Foods Not Working

I don't eat dairy produce, meat or wheat. I try to eat more fruit and veggies but I'm still piling on weight.

Eat Less Not Working

I go through periods of eating less, but then leas to periods of binge eating.

Physical Exercise Working / Worked

I love the gym, but can't get there anymore as I can't go alone.

Slim-Fast Somewhat Helpful

Weight Watchers Not Working

Martial Arts Working / Worked

Only vigorous exercise has helped me lose weight. There is no suitable Karate clubs in my area so I couldnt continue. I cant go cycling alone so I have to relay on other people to have time which never happens.

Open Single Parenting

Open Hypothyroidism

Went to the docs because I'm constantly tired and drained and am fighting a losing battle with my weight, after being told my blood test had come back clear, a month later I was told I have borderline hypothyroidism. I'm meant to be controlling it through my diet but haven't a clue what I'm meant to be doing. I have to go back in six months to see if it has progressed any worse.

Open Shyness

I've never been good at interacting with other people. When I was in my teen I started using drugs as a means to get out and not to be as shy around people, when I gave up the drugs I started drinking. Gave up the drinking and now I spend most of my time hiding away from the world. I can't go out alone incase someone speaks to me which brings on a panic attack.