i just moved to south texas. i …
i just moved to south texas. i had high hopes of starting a new life here. since my arrival here, i havent met anyone …
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hunnynutty 
11:50pm, October 26, 2009
Well in give or take 30 mins it will be my 28th birthday. Birthdays for me are no big deal.
I am hoping that my 28th year of life .. will be a little more exciting and a lot more happier. I have been dealing with depression for awhile and I really want to overcome it. Sadly, I am not really sure how. I thought moving to a new city would help. I moved in with my sister and I am more close to my family. It has helped in a way. I mean closer to family is good at times. Living with my sister has been good. We have always been close. She helps cheer me up when things aren't so cheery in my world. Then at times I feel like I am just a big problem. There are days were at each others throats, and then days where we are crying on each others shoulders. I guess thats the way we are .. and maybe other aswell. In the long run moving in with her I think was a good idea at the time. Not sure if this will help me in the long run, but I sure as hell am hoping it does.
I am dealing with the depression. I am seeing a shrink. Who has got me on meds. I miss having a weeking counselling session, but its hard to find a long term counsellor. I had one where I used to live, and well in the end we turned out to be good friends.
Other then that I am still here coping as best my soul will let me.
One thing I miss more then ever is having someone I can hang out with, a friend if you will. Someone I can make plans with and do stuff with. I have one real (in person) friend. Well, actually she is just a person I know and I have hung out with maybe a handful of times. She is dealing with the same crap I am dealing with and at times thats a good thing, others not so much. I want to meet new people but because of my shyness I am literally scared to venture out and meet someone new. So I am hoping that somehow I can get over that and try really hard to get my own friends. That way I am not so dependant on my sister to do stuff with.
All in all, I feel ok. not great ... but ok. I have a lot of work to do on myself. I am not sre if I can do it by myself, or if I need someone to help me deal with it all. I just hope things get better.
Happy BIrthday to me...hope year 28 is a blast!!
AT
I just figured Id use this the eve of my birthday to start writing on here again. I know I have said that before, but I am gonna really try.
I heard that people say writing help soothe the soul, and at times I can actually understand what they mean. You know those days where everything goes wrong and you just feel like crawling in hole and never coming out. Well if you write about it .. sometimes it helps. Other times...it just makes you feel like staying in that hole a little longer.I am hoping that my 28th year of life .. will be a little more exciting and a lot more happier. I have been dealing with depression for awhile and I really want to overcome it. Sadly, I am not really sure how. I thought moving to a new city would help. I moved in with my sister and I am more close to my family. It has helped in a way. I mean closer to family is good at times. Living with my sister has been good. We have always been close. She helps cheer me up when things aren't so cheery in my world. Then at times I feel like I am just a big problem. There are days were at each others throats, and then days where we are crying on each others shoulders. I guess thats the way we are .. and maybe other aswell. In the long run moving in with her I think was a good idea at the time. Not sure if this will help me in the long run, but I sure as hell am hoping it does.
I am dealing with the depression. I am seeing a shrink. Who has got me on meds. I miss having a weeking counselling session, but its hard to find a long term counsellor. I had one where I used to live, and well in the end we turned out to be good friends.
Other then that I am still here coping as best my soul will let me.
One thing I miss more then ever is having someone I can hang out with, a friend if you will. Someone I can make plans with and do stuff with. I have one real (in person) friend. Well, actually she is just a person I know and I have hung out with maybe a handful of times. She is dealing with the same crap I am dealing with and at times thats a good thing, others not so much. I want to meet new people but because of my shyness I am literally scared to venture out and meet someone new. So I am hoping that somehow I can get over that and try really hard to get my own friends. That way I am not so dependant on my sister to do stuff with.
All in all, I feel ok. not great ... but ok. I have a lot of work to do on myself. I am not sre if I can do it by myself, or if I need someone to help me deal with it all. I just hope things get better.
Happy BIrthday to me...hope year 28 is a blast!!
AT
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Happy B'day girl! Hope it is/was a good one. Counting down to mine....not that impressive I am one yr short of being twice your age.lol You want friends I want some excitement but not of the bad kind good fun something to make me laugh, have had enough of the other kind of excitement need some positive things to happen now.
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