I found that I probably had bipolar my whole life but didn't get diagnosed until just a few years ago. No one ever put together all the behaviors - even the major manic episodes. I was never able to stick with anything - got successful and then kill it I finally figured out that I am an artisan - a sculptor, I was always creative and went to art school but my cycles would have me in and out of whatever I was doing on a regular basis. Now with all the meds I am on I can keep up with something I seem to love. The side effects keep me out of the normal job market but I am happy for the first time I can truly remember in my life! Not to say that I don't want to commit suicide on a regular basis..something my p doc says is totally normal for a BP, but I have joy that does not feel hypo manic or manic! I have two grown children and 1 grandson(4). I believe that life is the journey not the destination and mine sure has been a roller coaster ride.
I found that I probably had bipolar my whole life but didn't get diagnosed until just a few years ago. No one ever put together all the behaviors - even the major manic episodes. I was never able to stick with anything - got successful and then kill it I finally figured out that I am an artisan - a sculptor, I was always creative and went to art school but my cycles would have me in and out of whatever I was doing on a regular basis. Now with all the meds I am on I can keep up with something I seem
At this point I can't say that I have any interests. I feel that I may be coming out of a depression that lasted so far over 2 months. Nothing brought me joy and I mean nothing. Hoping that I can get back into something. Yesterday I found "Holiday cards for Heros", and got all excited about sending cards to the soldiers in Iraq and Afghanistan so I got a friend to take me to K-mart so I could get some cards!! I addressed and signed a bunch and then got them into a big envelope and bought postage. Today the postal person will pick them up to go. This is the first project I have wanted to do in over two months and I completed it! I am still so excited. Small things are big things when nothing matters to me for so long.
At this point I can't say that I have any interests. I feel that I may be coming out of a depression
February 21, 2009 12:20am
Abject total depression for 5 months. Welbutrin did not help. Went off of it as I was becoming irritable, anxious, paranoid and still depressed. Pdoc …
November 12, 2008 1:00pm
Finally after nearly two months of depression I think I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I found something that excited me! Then I bought nail …
June 16, 2008 3:32pm
I don't know how I get so busy that I can't check in here but I do. Time just flys when you are in a "fog!!" It has been an …
January 31, 2008 2:53pm
It has been a really long time since I have been on here. If I hadn't been getting litttle bits from himarg and nobody66 I probably wouldn't …
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I am drowning in disability paperwork. i do not know what to tell these people. Sometimes I am totally okay and then I'm not. aaaarg. I hired a …
Kam-Thank you-we are still waiting on the Judges decision. I go in for the MRI on my hip on Thursday. I will see on Dec. 1 what the MRI says. Thanks again. Marg
Just went through the same thing with my son. What a difference the right doses and anti-depressants make. My son is now back to a kind and out going guy. I hope your life will and is getting back to a more enjoyable you. Lot's of luck and creativity with your artisty talents. Lots and loads of hugs and loves go out to you. Hang in and life will just get better and better. Afriend always!!!1Marg
Thanks. My Mom died and my Dad is causing kous in Fl. My sister is under alot of stress stnce she has the power of attorney over health and estate. I just can give her emotional support and that's all. She wants me to go to Fl. but I can't right now. I might eventually but time will tell. I have to have my 6 month mamogram done tomorrow. I am hoping everything is ok. I hate this every 6 month's it was bad enough yearly but twice a year is hard. Oh well part of life I guess. Lot's of loves and hugs Marg
Today I feel the depression and sadness. I have not written in my journal because we went from sending my mom's funneral , to sending my Dad back to Fl. now finding assisted living for him. Today I feel it because I am realizing that I no longer have my MOM's support and I will not be physically able to care for my dad. This means in my home. After all we are taught to care for our parent's if they need and when that can't happen their's a hole that is. I can't explain it but someday maybe I can. Thanks for the hug today because it's really a day that I need hugs. Loves Marg
thank you for your post in the alcholism,hope to see more
I was finally diagnosed as BP after being treated for depression/rage my whole life. One of my kids is BP but my behavior was not even similar. I took a quiz and finally I understood that all of these behaviours could be easily explained! I didn't have to feel "crazy" anymore.
I took my first drink at 12 and fell in the bottle. I am bipolar and I'm pretty sure I was self medicating. Got sober at 37. Nine and a half years later the cunning, baffling and powerful disease took me back out. I crawled back in 21 mo. ago after 4 1/2 years in hell.I am a very grateful alcoholic.
I have had asthma for over 50years(except age 14-21). Allergies used to be +4 to just about the entire planet. I think I have been on most of the meds down through the years including the speed they gave us in the 50's and 60's. I am now well controlled and I'm enjoying it! I didn't notice a category for this: childhood asthma, exercise induced, allergy induced, adult asthma.
