deoxyribose's Journal

I have less than one month to find work or else I must go on welfare, then I will have to either rent out my house and live with my mom, or outright sell my house and rent an appartment with what I make on the sale, until I can find work. I was going to find a way to do some upgrading and get into a grad program and then the chair of the department said I need to do a lot more courses than origionally anticipatd, and I cannot afford it. I don't know what is going to happen, but things are not looking good. I had one job come up that may work out, but the hiring manger is on vacation so who knows when/if I may even get an interview. Chances are he won't be interested in interviewing me, like everyone else in this city, because I was a neuroscience lab tech and no one else wants me since my job disappeared because my skills aren't transferable since it was very specific training. I spend most of my time wondering how I could die so my house will end up paid off so my husband doesn't have to worry about living anymore. Aweful I know. He is done his program on Sept 1st and he won't have any income at that point, so he would have been relying on me until he could find work, and now, we just have no way to do that. I am more depressed than I have ever been. How is it fair that I have a degree and great lab experience and cannot find any job at all, not even a minimum wage one?