I joined this site about a year and a half ago, in October '07. I'm primarily looking for support, friends, and information for my anxiety disorder. I suffer regularly from social phobia, anxiety attacks that sometimes last for days on end when things are REALLY bad, as well a GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) My problems started a long time ago. I have memories of suffering extreme shyness and self-consciousness when I was a little kid, as young as 3 years old. I also battle depression on a regular basis, which is usually induced by the strain and frustration of the constant anxiety. I have had days when I did not want to go out anywhere, or even leave my own room for weeks on end because of feeling so miserable. I also have a hearing impairment in both ears, which is a constant stress and causes me to get hypervigilant at times. It seems to siginificantly exacerbate my anxiety and depression. After numerous and fruitless attempts, I finally sought therapy once and for all in February '08 and fortunately was able to find some assistance with the help of my Mass Rehab counselor who was very concerned for me that I was going to have a complete nervous breakdown. As a result, I found my wonderful therapist, Deb, and I feel very grateful for having health insurance to cover most of the expenses of seeing her. I also started on prescription medication in March of '08 and though it was difficult at first and took some getting used to, my depression is under better control now, however my anxiety still remains an ongoing problem. Still even though I feel I have a long road of recovery ahead of me, I count my blessings every day and I do my best to keep a positive outlook on things. I've learned to allow myself to take life one day at a time. I love yoga and have been a regular practitioner for 12 years. I am a certified Usui Reiki Master. I got my Associate's Degree in General Studies from a community college in 2002. I very recently adopted two cats from a local shelter and so far, their presence has had a positive effect on me. I can play an instrument: self-taught on the classical guitar. I believe exercise is very important for one's spiritual and emotional well being in addition to the physical and I try to get out walking at least 2-3 times a week. I live in Massachusetts but have family and a boyfriend in Pennsylvania. I do a lot of traveling back and forth throughout the year. I've been involved with this guy for 8 years now and still going strong.
I joined this site about a year and a half ago, in October '07. I'm primarily looking for support, friends, and information for my anxiety disorder. I suffer regularly from social phobia, anxiety attacks that sometimes last for days on end when things are REALLY bad, as well a GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) My problems started a long time ago. I have memories of suffering extreme shyness and self-consciousness when I was a little kid, as young as 3 years old. I also battle depression on a regular
Yoga (both asana & philosophy), Eastern thought & philosophy, vegetarian/vegan lifestyle, journaling, poetry writing, visiting in PA. Some of my role models are the Dalai Lama, Gandhi, & Paramahansa Yogananda. I enjoy going out for walks, working out with free weights and staying physically & spiritually healthy. I study Reiki and spiritual/energy healing. I like doing my best to be a decent person and a good friend, ebaying (both buying and selling), looking for innovative and cost efficient ways to better organize my life, as well as help the earth & the environment. I'm always on the lookout for creative ways to save and make money. I enjoy a broad range of music from classical/opera, to hard rock, to alternative music from the early 90's. I also enjoy folk music, old Bob Dylan, John Denver, Johnny Cash, Loreena McKennitt & am a big fan of Kirtan (chanting). My least favorite kind of music is rap, jazz, and most country. I collect shotglasses and elephants. My fave color is orange.
Yoga (both asana & philosophy), Eastern thought & philosophy, vegetarian/vegan lifestyle, journaling,
August 23, 2009 11:27am
I fractured my patella (kneecap) into three pieces, fractured my jaw, broke three toes, and received a deep gash in my chin which …
August 9, 2009 5:34pm
The house might have sold. An offer was put on it and my parents accepted the offer. If it goes through, we'll need to be moved out …
May 5, 2009 4:49am
I've been thinkning about giving up the drug pursuit lately. My last visit with the nurse she increased my zoloft to 75mg, but I'm not …
April 22, 2009 9:34am
What has been going on with DS lately? The pages take forever to load. I think it's because of all the advertisements. It's …
April 12, 2009 12:06am
An Update:
No calls back to work yet but I did talk to my manager on Tuesday. She says things are just very very slow this year and they are …
I think of you often dear friend. I know you are very busy moving and getting used to your new place and getting over your awful accident. I do hope you are okay..love you xoxoxo
I do hope you have got over your awful accident. I know you must be frantically busy with the move etc but would really like to know how you are. i often think about you.
Love,
Sheila
Hey friend! Haven't talked with you in a while. I hope you hanging in there. I think I have become so numb, which is better than before. Here's a hug to help you smile!
Sorry to here about your ordeal at the bus station. Hope you are doing better.
Hey there:)) Remember me? It's Jason, I know it's been awhile, just wanted you to know I have'nt forgotten you. Hope you're doing good. Write me sometime:)
Fighting anxiety my whole life. Social Anxiety/Phobia in particular, but also General Anxiety Disorder and Panic Attacks. I finally sought therapy in February '08. It's still been a major struggle however, and it makes me prone to spiraling into dark depressions.
Hearing loss in both ears, considered to be moderate to severe. I don't believe I was born with this loss, but rather it was something that rapidly declined in my early childhood. I was diagnosed with it at age 5, with the loss continuing to decline and then plateau around age 8. The exact cause is unknown but I was recently told it's probably due to a mutant gene that skips generations in my family. My oldest brother has the same loss. My other brother and both parents have normal hearing.
Gave up all red meat completely when I was 15. Then I cut way back on my consumption of poultry and fish. I've pretty much eliminated all dairy products from my diet, except for eggs, which I still use.
Been dealing with shyness my whole life. It's gotten a lot better with time, but I still struggle sometimes.
Primarily social phobia. I also have a phone phobia to a degree and I dread using phones in public or in front of other people. I also have a mild water phobia. I'm very phobic of hospitals (to the point of panic attacks and sometimes passing out) and I'm distrustful of doctors. Oddly enough though, I don't have a dental phobia. I get a little nervous sometimes, but it's not a phobia (except for the bill maybe!)
Relationship issues and libido problems due to zoloft can sometimes create a little trouble in the bedroom.
I've struggled with bouts of insomnia since I was a young teenager. Not being able to sleep for days on end becomes total hell.
Social Phobic all My Life! Some days I can fight my way through it, other days I'm a mess.
