sheego's Journal

sometimes i wonder why i even try its like every time i try something new or try to do good i just fail  i know ive done alot of bad in my life and sometimes wonder if the whole karma thing is true well it must be and boy am i paying for all the shit ive done to hurt people and hurt myself and i just started school and i know i can do it i know i can but there is that fear of always failing thats holding me back which sounds stupid cuz how can you fail if your not wven going to at least try right well another thing that is totally bothering me is im so lonely again i feel like im always saying this so anyway for once in a long time i let myself open up to a guy well first of all we have been friends for a long time but we also hadnt talked in like forever but anyway i opened up and let him in let him acctually get feelings out and i thought he was a really nice guy  just to end up getting hurt its like one day he cares one day he doesnt even know me  and so on over and over  anyway i dont know im just really hurt and really sad so bye for now