Journal Entry for October 15, 2009
October 15, 2009 10:00pm
AmericanIdolQueen721984
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About Me
AmericanIdolQueen721984
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About Me
I am an aspiring singer. I am also a very caring person. I am there for anyone who needs someone to talk to. If you need someone to comfort you while your sad, I'll cry with you.. I am very emotional. I can't watch Extreme Makeover Home Edition without crying through out it. I love the show but I just cry LOL. I live at home with my mom. We've been through quite a lot. On October 25, 2006 my dad passed away from metastatic lung cancer which spread through his body like wildfire. He was in Vietnam and was exposed to Agent Orange and was deemed 100% service connected. Our 8 year old Irish Setter, Red died the same day as my dad. He died from forgive me for mispelling this hypertrophic cardiac myopothy or something similar to that spelling! In "normal" people's terms the one chamber of his heart didn't form properly at birth and he was a ticking time bomb from the moment he was born. Also on February 10th of 07, we had to have Thomasina my oldest cat put to sleep.
I am an aspiring singer. I am also a very caring person. I am there for anyone who needs someone to talk to. If you need someone to comfort you while your sad, I'll cry with you.. I am very emotional. I can't watch Extreme Makeover Home Edition without crying through out it. I love the show but I just cry LOL. I live at home with my mom. We've been through quite a lot. On October 25, 2006 my dad passed away from metastatic lung cancer which spread through his body like wildfire. He was in Vietnam
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Miss Amanda Sad'e said woof ! woof ! and thank you for the cookies mommy mandy.. hope your feling better sugar god bless you always. your friend sheriPss give your mother a hug fromus both to you both as well ok
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please accept these flowers from someone who understands loss. my dad died march 7 2007. he had prostate cancer. no matter what the age the hurt is just as bad. i was his caregiver and i loved him dearly. hang in there and take care
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionDepression has been a part of me my entire life. After my Dad passed away it got worse. He was my best friend and when he died it crushed me. I am doing fairly well now but I still have my days where I don't feel right.
Treatments
- Paxil Working / Worked
- it's kinda working I take sixty mg of it. Meaning my psychiatrist prescribles me the 40 mg and the 20 mg
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I always try to have a positive attitude about life and everything. I am the eternal optimist.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I don't know if it helps me or not, i mean my therapist talks to me about other things sometimes so it's hard to tell. What she does for me, my Cats can do for me LOL
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My Mom and Grandma have been a great support and also my friends here where I live. I also have 4 cats two older ones and 2 kittens. The kittens just make me feel so wonderful. They're like an antidepressant themselves :)
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- I got put on this because I was doing well with the depression but I was still having anxiety issues so the doc put me on this.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I talk to God a lot, and I write blogs. Nothing too personal but it helps if I'm feeling sad.
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentI lost my father on october 25 2006. He had terminal metastatic lung cancer which spread to his bone marrow and everywhere else. He was in Vietnam where they sprayed agent orange therefore he is 100% service connected
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- Crying Working / Worked
- I still have days where I see something or hear a song that reminds me of my Daddy and I cry.
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- I am not angry anymore, I get sad YES but not angry about it.
- Music Working / Worked
- Music is my life and singing is my passion
- Pets Working / Worked
- I have 2 older cats Princess and Lucky, who I have had most of my life. Recently we adopted 2 new kittens. They are brothers. Xander is mine and Buddy is my mom's. Xander is my little baby. He likes to sleep in my face at night which to me isn't very comfortable but he's happy LOL he makes me laugh. I'm so glad I have these kitties because they are my best friends on earth.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- God is my best friend so I pray to him and I actually talk to him about my Dad sometimes and even I talk to my dad sometimes and ask why he had to leave and just that I miss him and I love him.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- After my dad died I got back into therapy and we're working on some things.
- Remembering Considering
- when I see a picture it makes me cry so I am still not ready to remember or see picture because it make me cry
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- As I said about Depression, my friends and family mean the world to me.
- Talking Not Working
- I cry when I talk about my dad, and I was so close to him it hurts that he's not here anymore.
- Time Working / Worked
- I am seeing improvement with myself. It's been a year and 7 months since my dad passed away. I still miss him a lot but I feel like I can still live. Before I wanted nothing more than to join him. I wasn't suicidal or anything just I wished he could have taken me with him. I know I have a purpose in life but I have NO clue what it is. It just doesn't involve my Daddy anymore. He's always with me anyway
Open Panic Attacks
I suffer from panic attacks, not nearly as frequently as I did before but I still get them sometimes
Treatments
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Open Phobia
OH I have quite a lot of phobias my main one being spiders and I have a lot more.
Open Shyness
I am just shy until I get to know someone but even then I am way too shy to ask a guy out.
Treatments
- Pets Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
My beliefs are to abstain from sex until marriage and I intend to keep my promise to God
Open Psoriasis
Affected Areas: Psoriasis of the SkinI have had this forever but was just reciently diagnosed with it.
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
AmericanIdolQueen721984 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open War & Terrorism
AmericanIdolQueen721984 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Breast Cancer
I do not have breast cancer but I have lost many aunts on my dad's side of the family to it.
Open War in Iraq
I just feel sad that this is going on. I also have a cousin in the marines who is going to Iraq.
Open Blindness & Visual Impairment
I am sighted but I wear glasses. I also would like to find some blind friends. I am very accepting of everyone
Open Euthanasia
Last year (feb 10/07) my mom and I had to make the hard decision of putting our oldest cat Thomasina to sleep. She was in complete kidney failure and she was 16 years old. So I've had her a long time it was hard. I still miss her.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I would like to lose weight. I am 23 years old and I want to get healthier
Treatments
- Eating Healthier Foods Too Soon to Tell
- Physical Exercise Too Soon to Tell
Open Pet Bereavement
I lost my oldest cat and my dog. My Dog died the same day my Dad did.
Open Obesity
I used to be really skinny, then puberty hit. I want to lose the weight.
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Too Soon to Tell
- Swimming Too Soon to Tell
Open Mortgages & Foreclosures
Our first house was foreclosed on in July of 2006. It was our first and only house we owned as a family. We rented before and we're renting now.
Open Food Addiction
AmericanIdolQueen721984 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Nystagmus
My b/f has nystagmus
Open Sleep Apnea
AmericanIdolQueen721984 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Hypochondria
AmericanIdolQueen721984 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.
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