Levismommy's Journal

I have been thinking.......a dangerous pass time I know (a quote from Beauty and the Beast- Disney!) Seriously, I have been trying to figure out how to tune into myself again. with God and myself alone, not depending on another to light the fire inside of me again.....I have a great idea, I just have to muster the courage to do it.....k, it may sound silly, but I think that it could actually be a powerful inovation for my entire family, if done correctly...lol.

To give some back up history, I always wanted, while in the younger years of school, to be this fantastic writer, a jounalist, a novelist or something in that arena. Well, I obvoiusly have not done any of those things that I truly believed that I would...sad, but still, it came to me tonight, after a few pushes to my ego, that i could do a family bulletin. Ha, ha, I know, quorky! but, not just any family bulletin, more like a news letter with spots for other family mebers to write thier thoughts/feelings or whatever in.

Out here, I do not have my family, I am with my husband's family and they are, well, very different from mine. My family is very open, sometimes abnoxious and definately diverse, but we all stay conected somehow. Most of us talk, even when we really have nothing to say. My husband's family stays in their own bubble, apart from eachother. ok, so that's them, I have left it alone except for my periodic emotional flip outs due to being so isolated out here. I feel like i'm stuck in the twilight Zone with these people. So, my idea might be fun or at leat interesting. I could put my talents to use and open up communication within our circle. We may all learn alot from eachother and that is what matters to me. This is my first good idea in a long time. I guess my brain is waking up!