I am a mommy of four children, one which is in heaven. I have a wonderful husnband of almost five years now. We have been through too much in a short period of time as a young couple. I have struggled since the death of my infant son, my angle, Levi. He passed away after many trials and triumphs with his health, before he left, he was a normal, strong, healthy baby boy. I found him already gone in his crib, his death was determined as SIDS.I became pregnant with Zachy about 5 months after Levi's passing and that was incredible but also VERY scary. I recently had a miscarriage as well from a suprise preganancy, losing my unborn baby was indescribably sad and confusing. I'm finally getting passed the anger and pain from the loss of my levi and also the loss of my preganancy. My hope is to heal more and more and help others as I walk through this horrible and beautiful thing we call life.
I am a mommy of four children, one which is in heaven. I have a wonderful husnband of almost five years now. We have been through too much in a short period of time as a young couple. I have struggled since the death of my infant son, my angle, Levi. He passed away after many trials and triumphs with his health, before he left, he was a normal, strong, healthy baby boy. I found him already gone in his crib, his death was determined as SIDS.I became pregnant with Zachy about 5 months after Levi's
I enjoy taking care of my home and my family. I love to dance and secretly, I love to sing! I also enjoy fishing and camping and all of that good hillbilly stuff! School is a huge thing for me as well, I am extending my education to hopefully become a psychologist.
I enjoy taking care of my home and my family. I love to dance and secretly, I love to sing! I also enjoy
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Ditt....emptiness, at times, leaves me, us, all to reach out in a very destructive way....been there,…
Levismommy wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for November 5, 2009 2:19am
I heard it again, yesterday, that "who knows what struggles Levi might have had"....yes, my…
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November 5, 2009 2:19am
I heard it again, yesterday, that "who knows what struggles Levi might have had"....yes, my stomach turned and i was tempted to let …
October 25, 2009 12:50am
It's almost been four years and it still makes me almost tremble with anger when people say "well, there must have been something …
October 24, 2009 3:23am
I have cried most of the week, over silly things, then over memories of Levi....almost four years has passed and the ache is still there, the wonder, …
September 28, 2009 2:27am
I try so hard to be everything and more, yet see myself as nothing....I have fought through all adversity but tonight, I'm turning in my fighting …
Just to share, I been doing okay with things, but this last few months have been challenging, I thought of having an affair to help me feel better!!!!!HA, Whew I came to my senses and saw it would destroy me in the end. I guess we all seek fleshy feel good, earthly things to make us "feel good" when in fact we are tearing ourselves down. God Bless You and may you find the same strength that I did......much Christian Love to you Sister.....
You are so sweet! I am the one that is blessed.
You make me tear up! You are a blessing to me and I pray that our friendship is last for years to come. LYL Tonya
I am so glad that we are friends. It is so nice to see you growing in Peace. I know that nothing I can say will ease the pain,but, I hope you know I am here for you and pray for you. Your Love is very important to me. LYL Tonya
I hope you have a wonderful time. I hope the mountains are a bit cooler.
We lost our baby boy, Levi, in march of 2006. The cause of his death was SIDS and I really resent not knowing more. I found him @ naptime and tried to resesitate him, I was alone and I never learned cpr, the operator guided me. I am an absolute wreck. I'm still so lost and angry and helpless. He left behind his twin sister and older brother, who's eight. Levi died at 8 1/2 months old. He was healthy and happy and so strong. I blame myself and am pretty crazy anymore. I just need some hope.
My little baby,Levi,was born with craniosynostosis.His suchers had fused inutero and were nearly completely fused by birth from front to back on his head.It was very scary.He had surgery at 3 1/2 months old,the docs took a strip of his skull out,from front to back to allow the room for his brain to grow proportionately.Levi ahd to have a blood transfusion because of his loss of blood but after that,he recovered exceptionally and was perfect until his death of SIDS at 8 1/2 mnths March 2006.
My Levi was born a twin to his big sister Lacey June 19, 05,Father's day.Levi had problems to start with but recovered from them with such amazing strength.He was my angel,i held on to him so tightly.Before he died,he was healthy, big and strong. I had finally let my gaurd down with him and i guess that was when God decided to take him home.I feel crazy most of the time about losing him.I know that as a parent,I failed. SIDS was his cause of his death,but,to me,they just didn't know how he died
I had twins in 2005, a boy and a girl, Levi and Lacey. Lacey weighed 7 1/2 lbs and Levi weighed 71/4 lbs. Icarried them to 36 weeks and they were born June 19th, 2005, Father's Day. We lost our boy last March to SIDS but I still consider myself a mother to twins.
i was been diagnosed with apnic attacks soon after my son died last year. They usually happen at night, in my sleep or right before. I feel detached from myself, confused, my heart is racing and i'm terrified that i'm going to die. My attacks can last hours and i can not sleep when i am having one. They never just go away, i have to take medication to subside them
I found out that I was pregnant about a month ago. I was only 6 weeks pregnant, but I just felt it. As a mother, we tend to. I lost the pregnancy 4 days after I had my first ultrasound.....
