Journal

Leah is doing exceptionally well. I have no time for other stuff. DH and I get a date in 2-3 times a month. Everyone is so excited to watch Leah grow and make her milestones. I've never loved someone so much. I miss her all day at work, and can't wait to get home to her in the eve. We've truly settled into family life. I'm truly blessed to have her and DH in my life. Babies truly are a blessing.  I'm loving watching her grow and she's even eating baby food!!! She's so good and I love her.

Well after much consideration. DH and I decided that I should change gigs. I was offered a new job last week, making more money, and starting a NICU case management program for a health insurance company. I'm still working full time, but we not only need the benefits, but also need the extra money if we plan to pay off all of our bills and save for a house. I'm pretty excited, but kinda scared. Not of being laid off. I have more fear of that in my current position with another health insurance company being that they've asked all of us to turn in a copy of our resumes to management. Of course, I was the only one that asked why and was told that the utilization review accreditation commitee wants us to have them in our files. Like the company doesn't have that already, hell they hired us.  My coworker that came to us a year ago after temping for us said that they did this to them with her prev employer and they had 3 rounds of lay offs (she survived the first 2 rounds). She said that she was scared that that is what is going on.  I don't blame her, being that last month our company laid off 1500 people (not to mention the countless #s of folks that got their walking papers last year, alone!!!). Plus, they just had a big layoff on the floor above us this past summer.

I was nervous about taking this new job in this economy, but they're hiring me to head up a program, and plus why would they be hiring if they're laying folks off. Our company has an internal and external hiring freeze, but they're still posting postiions. Weird.  But DH said that he had thought and prayed about it and said that he felt that this was the right thing for us, more money, secure job, and a move up in my career. 

Not the part time job I thought I'd get, but I'd rather move to another full time gig than to a no time gig and a spot on the unemployment line. 

Life has been so busy with Leah. But I'm really enjoying it. Leah has a cold now. And has had one for a week so we paid the peds a visit today. They swabbed her for RSV, and we'll see what happens in a few days. She has the whole chest rattle, cough, and sniffles. No fever and no acting sick. She's smiling laughing and playing. Leah's such a good baby. She's even sleeping though the night. 

I can't believe that 3 months has flown by. Seems like yesterday we were bringing her home. But now she's a big girl and it kinda makes me sad. But she's gotta grow up. I'm just enjoying her at each stage and letting her  be her. DH is still with her all day, and I worked from home one day last week. I don't think working from home (WFH) is for me. When I'd come out of our home office, I was too relaxed and didn't want to go back in the office and finish the rest of the day. Plus it ruined my home is a sanctuary attitude. So, I think that keeping work and home separate has been good. Plus making my office at home was too weird for me.  However, I may still take my medical transcription course so that I can have something to fall back on in case the lay off wind blows my way.  I'm an RN, but I have not heard anything from the hospitals that I applied to, I thought of going back to bedside nursing, but they're not touching me because the don't think they can match my salary. I wouldn't have done it for the money, I would've done it to be home more, but I am at peace with my decision to take the job I took. It's 40 hrs a week no weekends no holidays. So, good I won't be missing any of Leah's or her sibblings' holidays. 

That's all for now. Just working on trying to lose some of this baby weight. I've lost some, but I need to bring my sexy back. I find that I'm dressing based on what can hide spit up, and other baby messes best (should Leah also known as Pooder Bear-she was so gassy in the hospital and at random times so that's the name she got while we were in the hospital. also known as Queen or Princess Boody Doo. decide to leave her mark on my clothes).