hope20z's Journal

Most people have stayed home for the day due to the major snow we got this evening and today. It is supposed to last some time into tomorrow. I have class tomorrow, it is mainly to review for our exam on Tuesday. I am nervous that I am going to fail this exam too. But, I spoke with my advisor and she told me that if I did fail the class then my GPA would just move from a 3.11 to a 2.8, which is not too bad. She also told me that I have plenty of classes to move my GPA way up before graduation. So, I should not be worring about this single class.

The doctors noticed something wrong with my mom's heart and they are running test today prior to surgery tomorrow. If the tests show that something is wrong then it might mean she can't have this elective surgery. She'll just have to deal with the pain. It's nice to be home sleeping in my old large bed and in my huge room, not having to share a bathroom and I love having my mom to talk to and watch movies with. Post surgery is what I am worried about. I know she is going to be in pain and in need of a lot of help. I know that after this exam I can giver her my all but, it may happen that I might sacrafice my exam to take care of her. Like I said before, failing this class is not the end of the world... now I just need to get myself to believe that. 

I have hugh anxiety about my credit card debt. I don't know where to start to get a job. I hate working for resturants and coffee shops (starbucks). I have applied at places like safewa, walgreens and Marriott, but these online applications just seem to go nowhere and when I go to the establishment to apply they ask me to apply online. It is like this visious cycle of application madness. I thought that I had a great resume with great people and leadership skills but, somewhere people don't get that from a piece of paper... I am sitting here in the student computer lounge and all I wanted to do was print some things... so now I need to go.