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March 26, 2009 11:19pm
It's been quite some time since i've been here. Mostly just writing for myself, but an update for anyone who reads here. …
shunshine 
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About Me
shunshine
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About Me
I look at my moments of depression like one would look at an eclipse...a big black circle crossing over my sunshine...i can see/feel it coming ever so slowly until it covers my sun completely and although it's covering my sun completely i can still see the glow of hope around the darkness...and so i wait for the darkness to pass. My depression doesn't bother me so much when i look at it this way because i know it's temporary and it will pass, it's the anxiety that really pisses me off...
I look at my moments of depression like one would look at an eclipse...a big black circle crossing over my sunshine...i can see/feel it coming ever so slowly until it covers my sun completely and although it's covering my sun completely i can still see the glow of hope around the darkness...and so i wait for the darkness to pass. My depression doesn't bother me so much when i look at it this way because i know it's temporary and it will pass, it's the anxiety that really pisses me off...
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Interests
I enjoy many different things...good music, good friends, philosophy, sex and sunshine, laughing and blushing uncontroably, dancing and having fun, my children, life i cherish no matter what, we only have one or many, but it isn't a dress rehersal for anything more...live it. Sometimes we all forget from time to time how good it can be, if only we would allow it to just be. I try my best to be as positive as i can, we all make mistakes, we are only human after all, no better, no less than the next. What i fear most, what makes my anxiety peak...i face it, weather i fail or succeed, the only failure really is if you don't even try...so, i try not to run or hide from it as the fear will only grow greater, and i will cease to exist if i allow it to live my life for me. If i trip, i blame it on the floor, if i bump into a wall, i say excuse me. I can laugh at myself, can you? Reguardless if i'm depressed, reguardless of my anxieties, reguardless of bp, i own my life, my mistakes, my happiness, my faults, my downfalls, all of it...it is mine and mine alone, the depression, anxieties and bp don't define who i am as a person. I am who i am, normal with a few quirks lol...
I enjoy many different things...good music, good friends, philosophy, sex and sunshine, laughing and
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Soul Child
July 13, 2008 2:13am
These words are song lyrics by Shawn Mullins called Soul Child. It's both sad and inspiring at the same time. I just …
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Journal Entry for April 10, 2008
April 10, 2008 10:25pm
I'm going to be a grandmother...ugh!!! I'm just not ready for this. My daughter is 20 now, but i had hoped that my girls would …
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Update!!!
April 10, 2008 9:55pm
Oh my...it's been a while since i've been here. Lot of things have happened over the last few months. Went from having depression …
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Good for you girl you keep up the good work I am proud of you
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Hello.I read your profile and it is very uplifting to me. I can really relate to seeing the light around the edges of dark. I'm glad to know that that is part of the process of pulling ones self back from the dark side. Thanks again for the openess!!!!
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Come & Join Our Safe Haven http://dailystrength.org/groups/af...
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you...are quite welcomed (smiles) I'm glad you're feeling better =)
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Sending this hug my friend in the hopes you’ll feel better soon and a smile will be upon your face!
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Close Depression
Depression and anxiety is what they tell me =)...ok, change that, bipolar is the new dx...just great!!!
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- Sucks...big time!!!
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- It helps when i'm not anxious lol.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Stopped zoloft to try wellbutrin...what a nightmare. Irritable and miserable for two months, had to stop taking it.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- worked for the first year up to 100mg, after that it seemed to not work anymore. Stopped taking it a year year ago.
Close Anxiety
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- It sucked!!!
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- and i keep trying =)
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Xanax Working / Worked
- helps but not something i want to take all the time.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- worked for a while then stopped
Open Single Parenting
shunshine hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Breakups & Divorce
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- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Reading Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Dizziness & Vertigo
Vertigo off and on for about 20 years...longest episode was for a year and a half...my head felt like it was in a wave pool at the amusement park.
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