kittykasrawk's Journal

I am living presently

in the past

and I cannot stop myself

The thoughts will not stop

of what was

what could have been

why is it such

that I cannot accept

where I am at

now...

Regret...  Regret...

Remorse...

sadness...

sinking sinking

knowing I did not embrace

fully what was

when I had the chance

the chances are no more

all that I am

lives only

in images

in memories

still shots reflecting

reflections

of life in my mind

that now only exist

in the pile of madness

that resides in my head

sinking sinking

down into

all I am

all I am not

memories

existence

all I have

all I have

the knowing

the knowing

of what was

and what will

never be

again

shadows

shadows

of glory

of failure

of despair

of joy

of longing

of love

of deception

of what will

never

be

again