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Today, I believe, is a good day, as far as Mondays can take you. Two research reports due...But I have all day, since I'm home-schooled. My mom's best friend's son made it through Basic Training for the Marine Corps. on Parris Island, which I hear is tough. He graduated last weekend. Mom was out of town for 3 days. I love her and all, but things went a lot more smoothly while she was away. I did my chores without repeated nagging for once. We took reasonable turns on the computer and agreed (for the most part) on a lot more things. And she's all concerned because I've joined this site. I mean, everyone needs a little outside of the family support, but I mostly joined to help other people. I've been looking for a site like this one forever for that purpose. She doesn't get it. I never really get excited or overly happy around her or my family in general. I get in ridiculously bad moods, which everyone picks up on. I don't have bad moods or days for any reason, either. But families like to kind of fester the wound, so to speak. If I'd heard another "What's wrong, Dani?", I would have gone nuts on them. Half the time, I'm just a little cranky, but by the time they're done, I have to say it's because they won't leave me alone. And now that mom's seen that I've joined DailyStrength, she's acting like she's one of those parents that daughters share everything with, every 10 minutes she's asking me, how are you and anything new going on? She thinks I'm a cry for help! She's always been the kind of mom wise enough NOT to ask me to share, to let my own business be my own business (except for the time she read my journal WITHOUT PERMISSION). It just seems stupid, like moms who only pay attention to their kid after they've attempted suicide or been in a terrible accident or something. I'll never share deep, personal things with my parents. It's way too late to get comfortable with it now! That's how they've raised me, that's who I am, and they need to know that they've really had that coming. I mean, I'm never going to talk to her about things like sex or my feelings. I love her, I really do, she's wonderful, but right now, I wish she was still in S.C., texting on occasion, that kind of thing. If she and dad got divorced, I'd cry over my decision, but would choose to live with dad. Know why? He NEVER asks me to share, or makes a big deal out of nothing. I cook dinner, do the laundry and clean the kitchen, he's fine with me. He's patient about things, that's the clincher. I just don't even know! Do you know, when mom was on her way home, when we found out she was like, within 6 hours of being home, all of the fighting started up again? Siblings like my sisters and I will always have our little spats, but full-on, over-nothing, yell-at-each-other fights only happen when she's at home. What are your thoughts?
