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7:26am, April 27, 2009
I didn't realize I haven't written in my journal for a while. Instead I seem to burden those closest to me. So maybe I'ld better get back to this and give them a rest. The weather keeps changing which you all know plays havoc with our pain. Mine seems to be hooked up to some kind of circuit board. It runs around, never in the same place. Right now I'm looking outside and it's grey and the pain has already increased in my calves and my feet are burning. My blood sugar is going haywire (I'm not diabetic), but is varies up to 120 in an hour. Those are the bad things.
The good things: I sent mom #1 her first birthday present from me and it was her 70th. I spent 2 months knitting her a scarf. It shouldn't have taken that long, but the hands wear out quicker now than they used to. I told her I thought I was a little too old to send her a picture on a paper plate. She laughed at that and said that was usually what mom's got for a first birthday. But she loved the scarf. She wanted to hang it on the wall next to my picture. I told her no, you're supposed to wear it and think of me. We both have envelopes where we've saving $ to see each other, as she's in WI and I'm in GA. She's never been sick a day in her life, so we laugh and blame on "him". She never married because she felt like she left all of her love with me when she put me up for adoption. It broke her. So now she's healing and so am I. We are so much alike in our attitudes, feelings and souls. That's why I never felt like I belonged...But now I do. I searched for 29 years for her. God must have known when the right time would be for both of us. Between God and Mom they have given me a gift...I feel the ability to love so deeply now, that I didn't know before.
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What a wonderful journal entry.Sorry about the bad things the pain and your blood sugar levels.
When i read this all i saw was the good things.It is lovely to hear when something so good happens,like meeting mom#1.By the time i had finished reading about you and your Mom i had tears running down my face.It is such a wonderful moving story for you both to find each other.It sounds like the missing part of the puzzle has been found and now it is complete.I am so pleased for you both and i cant imagine what it must be like to be saving so one day hopefully soon meet each other.
Take care and God bless you,
Love and hugs,
Lou x x x
lou22
VERY PRETTY AND I FELT THE SAME FEELINGS AS YOU DO FOR YOUR MOM.THE TIME I HAD WITH MY MOM FILLED ME WITH JOY.I DO MISS HER SO.
TINA456
Love to read your journal entries !
beautiful as always...
always something inspiring coming from you !
much respect and love friend!
Jessie
jessiepalooza
I loved your journal entry. Our daughter, is adopted! I'm the adoptive MOM, but as I was reading your entry I tried to place myself in your shoes and mom #1's shoes. How excited you both must be! My daughter hasn't expressed an interest in finding her birth mother, but when she does, I plan to support her in her efforts. I only pray that she will not be disappointed. It sounds to me like you have a great relationship with mom #1, even though you haven't met in person----how wonderful!!!
xoxoxo (((((hugs for you, my friend)))))
Honey46
WOW,BEAUTIFUL STORY. IM So Glad YOU & Your#1 mom found each other. So Very Moving. Im Praying GOD Eases Your PAIN Very SOON. LOVE,PEACE & HAPPINESS,FRIENDSHIP,SUPPORT & MY PRAYERS TO YOU & Yours ALWAYS.indigo/cindi
Indigo
Dee that is so cool you found her,,really cool. I can't wait to hear about when you meet.
deb
Deb115