fallfromgrace's Journal

Feeling ok today, bad things happened but I am trying to deal with them better. THis is where my husband actual helps me - he helps calm me down and not let one little thing ruin my entire day...

So that's what I am doing .... going to another meeting this Thursday, still need to get a sponsor because i need to start working the damn steps! 

Anniversary was really bad and then really good..... But overall it was a change for the better. I think we were really forced to dig deep and think: am i with this person because i love them or is it just easier? See I dont have kids and I am 27, so there isnt as much holding me here as there is for some people... And I deserve to be happy, and so does my H, so if we are not happy in the marriage I would rather deal with the hard times now and get out, rather than spend both our lives in misery.

We both found what it was that brought us together in the first place..... and we both decided that our marriage is worth fighting for, that even though he had the A, we both planned on spending our lives together, and that has not changed.....

Today I feel slightly more balanced......