mssunshine's Journal

spent two hours in the rain alone.  but her flowers and ballons looked good.  I even got her the number 27 candles hoping it would stop raining so I could blow them out for her.  I spent the whole day by myself.  My daughter Jamie won't call me back, my son I don't know and my youngest I think is just as stressed and depressed as I am.  I am afraid I am rubbing off on her.  My friend just died and now because we never transferred the truck I bought from  him i might lose.  His family are vultures.  he deserves better than this.  I wish I could just run and hide.  I am tired of feeling this way and my kids, my mom, those who really matter to me just look at me and nothing good.  they don't understand.  I need my medication back this stuff they gave isn't working.  I realized yesterday after no phone calls, no visits, nothing just alone I really am alone.  I have god in my heart and i know thats why I did nothing stupid and made it through the day.  Thank you jesus for being there for me and taking care of my angels.  Something has to give here soon.