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mssunshine 
5:38pm, August 25, 2009
Hey my beautiful angel,
I am sitting here at work just thinking wow your birthday is next week. I am really sorry you won't be here to celebrate with us. I am still baking your cake and I will be taking off work and bringing your balloons. Not this weekend but next weekend we will be having your birthday party. You won't believe this but Sunday I am getting baptised. I go to church now every sunday and most of the time the your kids go with me. They seem to enjoy it. I also went to a head doctor the other day and I do think she is right. I had some real shitty parents as you know and when you were born oh Bobby you changed my whole world. You gave me a reason to live and I wanted to give you all I didn't get. Mainly just love and give you a mom that I never had. You were my savior. And then when you left she said it was like I was going back in time. Like that feeling of not being loved, not wanted, and just feeling alone. I know I have your brother and your sisters and all my great grandkids but you are the one that saved my life in more ways than you will ever know. I miss you so bad, and I do feel lost and empty. I know I have to be strong and do what needs to be done for your babies. That is why I went to the head doctor. I feel to alone, like I want to crawl up in a shell. I just wish things were different and you were here. I miss you like crazy. It makes me crazy sometimes. I love you Jo. You are my bestfriend, my first born, and my life saver. I need you Bobby, stay by my side as you always did so I don't go off track. I want so bad to just give you a hug and tell you so much to your face. What the hell happend??? I still ask myself that question everyday. Just please know you are loved and missed so badly. I love you Bobby Jo. Your kids want to send you a big hug and kisses to their mommy. so you catch them okay,
Love you dearly
Mom
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Trish, what a beautiful letter you wrote to your daughter. We all have different beliefs. I believe that our children are a gift from God. Why they were taken so soon, is an answer we will never receive hear on earth. I do believe that our children see us and hear what we say. I can picture Bobby Jo smiling along with the other angels saying "isn't my Mom something"!.......Wishing you find some peace. Hugs, Pat
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Mother mother mother,thanks that makes me feel special ( yea right) u have 3 other children here and we need you more than you need us and i feel you are still only worried about your own grief , hell i told you i was trying to get in cousiling , i was never told you were getting baptised thanks for the invite mom do you think you can live up to the requirements of being baptised? its a serious deal and you have to want to do it do u? well im kinda pissed off so i am gonna get off here and go do something so i can foget all the mean things you jsut said and made me feel i still love you yoru DAUGHTER Jamie
jamiejam
Why are you so mad?? I tried calling you but you did not return my call. You still haven't returned my call today. I can't seem to please anyone the way they want so what the hell. Oh and by the way I can handle it so thanks for the doubt you have in me. Oh and by the way thanks for calling me back I wanted to let you know that Rocky died. No matter what I do love you , but you need to stop keeping yourself secluded from your family.
mssunshine