mssunshine's Journal

Hey my beautiful angel,

I find myself thinking of more and more throughout the days and it plays with my head and my heart.  Lil Eric and Emonie graduated from their class Friday.  You would be so proud.  Emonie sang the national anthem all by herself.  She looks so much like you as she grows.  Its hard to believe she will 8 this year and your big guy will be 10.  Your husband had a breakdown at the graduations.  He misses you so much and says he just wants his wife back.  He said he would give his life if only he could make it happen so the kids could have their mommy.  Emonie really needs you.  I think in a way I am still in denial.  I want to believe your on a trip and your coming home soon.  If I think any other way I am afraid I will lose my mind.  I have my breakdowns everyday though I guess reality hits me at least once a day.  I miss you so much.  There is so much I wish I would of done and said.  I do know you know I love you with all my heart.  Your birthday is coming up.  Big 27.  And that big 21st birthday for your baby sister is right around the corner.  It is going to hit her pretty hard that you are not going to be there to celebrate with her.  Hell you all talked about it since she turned 16.   I just wanted to talk to you for a second, I am at work and was just thinking the last time I talked to you I sitting right here at this desk doing paperwork.  I have your pictures all around my desk and I will never forget our last words " I love you".  Bobbie I love you so much and there are no words to describe how much I really miss you.  Just know you are thought of every minute of every day.  Gotta get back to work I am getting wet eyed here.  I love you Jo and will always hold you in my heart until I see you again.    We all love and miss you so much.

Love and miss you dearly

Mom