kimberee's Journal

I haven't journal for such a long time, I thing because I felt that if I didn't write it all down; it wouldn't be true. I am not doing well, I seem to stay in a constant flare and my back problems just make my pain that much worse. I had to have surgery in October and was going to have home care due to an open wound and be in bed for 6 weeks. Praise God that they were able to close the wound and I was just in alot of pain. My mother flew in to help. If you have read my past post you know that my husband and I have had problems for a while. Well it all came to a boiling point and while I was on major medicine I asked him to move out. I could go thru all the details and make me feel vindicated for my actions. But here's the truth I did it in anger and it was WRONG! I love him! and since then it was been really bad. my children have been suffering and I have been in a non-stop flare.

I went to my rheumy on Wednesday who just uped my cymbalta and I went to my Pain dr. who wants to do another translumbar injections in my low back and they were painful last time but I had to rest for 4 days for them to go into effect. I just don't know how I am going to handle this. I feel like I am at the end of my rope. my husband says he wants to work it out but then when he comes over its the same thing, why is the house a mess? I think you should apologize and kiss up to my daughter (which I already have)  P.s. my pastor has told him that his daughter is the major problem in our marriage. I just don't know what to do.

Could you please pray? I getting desperate here!