depressed
June 28, 2009 11:31pm
Im crying and all i want to do is cut myself and watch me bleed, i need to feel like im alive. Why am i like this im discuted in myself for even …
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About Me
Im a strong hard person on the outside and soft and broken on the inside. I dont let people in it hurts too much. Everyone i love is at arms length. Im going to use my pain to help others.
Im a strong hard person on the outside and soft and broken on the inside. I dont let people in it hurts too much. Everyone i love is at arms length. Im going to use my pain to help others.
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holistic medicine, meditation, reiki, acupuncture, sports, exploring different cultures, studying the soul
holistic medicine, meditation, reiki, acupuncture, sports, exploring different cultures, studying the
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One day at a time
June 9, 2009 6:23am
I started back into training today after my little drug binge over the past week. I feel great!!! On the track to good things
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June 8, 2009 8:45am
The other night i was joking around with my husband being silly and teasing him like a school kid, we do that a lot with each other. My parents were …
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God bless and keep you safe Lassie
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Sending you some sunshine! Hope you have a great week....(((HUGS)))
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I hope this hug will give you an uplift to your day and that you won't be feeling yuk! for too long....
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have suffered from depression as long as i can remember. My whole life things have just gone wrong. I have been raped, abused by partners buried my son, had a miscarriage been molested, abducted at 16, and had a very serious addiction to amphetamines and alcohol. I am now a straight and close to normal as im going to be person. I am married with a new baby and two step kids. I have overcome many things from my past but they all still haunt me.
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Excellent helps me reflect on all the good in my life. I also practice Reiki and find it healing for my soul
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Very helpful but find i need to program my thoughts often as they slip into negative pattern easily
- Prozac Not Working
- Tried!! Hated!!! Only a bandait for the real problems below!!!
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Have tried on and off. Not ready to really commit yet
- Writing Working / Worked
- Always helped, would go crazy without an outlet!
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Tried!! Hated!!! Only a bandait for the real problems below!!!
- Acupuncture Working / Worked
- Excellent!
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildAugust 16th 2000, my son was born premmie at 22 weeks. I got to nurse him for 3.5hours while he was alive until he stopped breating and passed away at 3am on the morning of the 17th. I have never been the same again. It broke my heart.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Punching my punching bag helps
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- helps me cry it out
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- I need to talk about him to remember im scared of forgetting about him
Open Sexual Abuse
I was sexually abused by my uncle at age 11. Easly this year I told my parents for the first time. It has scarred me and set off a chain of events in my life. I wish i could confront him.
Open Cocaine Addiction & Recovery
i cant say no, i hate myself for that
Open Alcoholism
my parents are alcoholics and i just dont want to give it up
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- it only works for a short period of time
Open Self-Injury
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- i feel ashamed and when i tell my shrink i dont do it for a while
- Talking Not Working
- people juyst think im crazy and shut it out
Open Adoption
i was adopted at 3 months for a couple of thousands of dollars my mother was too bust partying to want to care for me, i have dodgy birth certificate so i will never b anle to find my birth father and my mother i have not yet found. My current mother will not help my find her, shes an alcoholic, compolsice lyer who is too insecure to see i need this!
Open Anger Management
im angry i sometimes punch things, scream and lose complete control of myself
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