AnAddictionAdored's Journal

Grr I'm so frustrated!
As you can probably tell by the name...

My boyfriend is on the atkins diet and it's really bugging me!
Him and his mum are doing it.
They're doing it for 10 days and are racing to see who loses the most.
But they're not changing their lives!
They're being unrealistic.
They wont maintain this lifestyle.
They say they're not going to go straight back to their old life style afterwards, but they will! I know they will because they did last time.

He said the only reason I didn't like it was because he wasn't dieting my way.

Well fuck him, my way is better!
It allows you to have what you want, moderation is the key!
It's healthier...

It's a lifestyle change, not a diet.

Of course I mean my "diet" not my anorexia, I don't think anorexia is the way and I'm trying to make sure I keep on eating.

It's just annoying...

I see atkins as just another fad diet.

It works, yeah, but how easy is it to maintain?
How long until you snap and go and have a week of binging on carbohydrates and sugars just so you can gain all that weight you just lost?!

GRRRRRRRrrrr I hate feeling this mad!!
I know it's not even 100% rational but I'm still just SO mad!!
And I can't help it.
He's just annoying me all the time at the moment.

Perhaps it's hormones.
I don't know, but I'm sick too and after 2 days of barely eating, I've had 2 days of eating a LOT...
I think my body is trying to make up for it.
It's probably worried I'm going to keep dropping drastically...
Though I've gained just over half of it back now, I think.

  And I'm in the middle of moving so I'm all stressed out about that...

Feeling anxious because although I wanted to move into town and I still think it's a good idea, and if I wasn't moving I would be really depressed and disappointed.... I just still scared about living in town!
I've never lived in town before and I'm scared I'll feel claustrophobic or trapped.

I'm scared the small property will make me feel sufforcated.

I think I'm partially comfort eating at the moment too.
I'm mad now so all I want to do is go and dive into the soy ice cream I brought as a trial the other day...

I'm so frustrated with my bf that I signed out and turned off my phone so we couldn't keep arguing.
I didn't want to just spend the rest of the night fighting so figured I'd go away until I could calm down.
Only problem is I don't know how long it will take me.

Irrational anger doesn't tend to go away easily.

Grr yesterday I felt so happy at my friends wedding and I couldn't wait until I could get married to my boyfriend, now I don't even want to be around him.

Think I'll just go to bed and cry for awhile...
I've lost track on whats happening in the movie because I was so busy arguing and it's finishing soon...

Might head off once it's finished.
It's only got 18 minutes.

 Anyway, I might write more later...