Thinking about dying.
This is really hard to write as I've been feeling very.... closed, lately.I don't like talking about things because people keep shutting me …
~~Poem~~ ___~***The demons and eyes, The secrets and lies ...Inside... Just beneath the skin My wires are coming undone... My stitches are coming loose... And one day soon, you shall see... The darkness that is inside of ME.***~___I like to say "Just" and "I don't know" to bulk up my sentences. I like to say "But" to make excuses for my behaviour and make me hate myself less. I love to say sorry, but others (Esp. my B/F) get sick of it. I bake and i make all my family and friends fat... They hate it. I'm random, usually pretty untalkative and seem distant a large percent of the time.
~~Poem~~ ___~***The demons and eyes, The secrets and lies ...Inside... Just beneath the skin My wires are coming undone... My stitches are coming loose... And one day soon, you shall see... The darkness that is inside of ME.***~___I like to say "Just" and "I don't know" to bulk up my sentences. I like to say "But" to make excuses for my behaviour and make me hate myself less. I love to say sorry, but others (Esp. my B/F) get sick of it. I bake and i make all my family and friends fat... They hate
Baking, Psychological Disorders, Nora Roberts (The author), Listening to Music, Watching TV, Chatting Online with my various group sites. ... Suicide(As depressing as that sounds).
Baking, Psychological Disorders, Nora Roberts (The author), Listening to Music, Watching TV, Chatting
This is really hard to write as I've been feeling very.... closed, lately.I don't like talking about things because people keep shutting me …
Hi guys... And Girls I suppose.Does anyone actually take offense to that?Well, I've moved now.I'm now living in town.Well, it's …
Grr I'm so frustrated!As you can probably tell by the name...
My boyfriend is on the atkins diet and it's really bugging me!Him and his mum …
Well, this journal probably wont be very interesting. I'm just here to update my weight loss progress. Dieting wasn't going well for me, but …
Feeling kind of worthless, to be honest.
I used to feel so preasured into being the right thing.To behaving well, doing what I was told, etc.And I …
Thanks for all your comments on my photos, I didnt notice them before!
^_^
i definitely know the feeling. don't worry about me though. i don't mind helping my close friends like you. i know how you feel about the whole "family not listening to you" thing. you have to try to let them know how you feel and maybe they'll be there for you more often. no matter what happens, just try to hang in there and stay strong, okay? *hugs*
Progress
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UNDIAGNOSED. I flick between binging, binging/purging, restricting, restricting/overexercising. Food is never easy for me anymore.
Been self-harming on and off since i was 14... tried to quit, failed. got bored of it, got re-interested... so on and so forth. Currently falling into the habit again.
I'm 16, been struggling with on/off depression since i was 10-11... It's sneaking back again.
I haven't been able to get to sleep before 3am for 7-10 days... It's 5:15am, no sleep yet. 5am seems normal now. I'm so sick of feeling so tired and drained! i'm so sick of feeling so exhausted!
Tragically, Summer is the most Depression-Prone time for me.
Upon reflection... i guess the dead give away of having a food addiction was the first time i started fantasizing about buying dozens of cakes and sitting somewhere alone like my bathroom and just shoving them down without much care to whether i was full or not... Food is not my friend, why can't i remember that?
My sexuality... Complicated. What more can i say?
Damaged point of view on sex.
I've been having some problems with emotional binge eating and I've gained 5 pounds that i'm REALLY struggling to lose again... but i'm hoping joining here will help!
Ah depression... need i explain my relationship with it? it's pretty normal.
My best friend online found out he had diabetes a year ago... just looking to ask some questions and stuff :]
Parents split before I was born and got a divorce not long after that... I don't see my dad anymore and I've always lived with my mum.
I don't know if I'm actually a hypochondriac or not but I find this stuff interesting! :]
I have anxiety issues...
It will me my partner and I's 3rd year aniversary on the 30th October. Just here to look for advice and such.