hope!
November 3, 2009 6:01pm
its being donkeys since i last wrote a journal, and i think to myself "have things changed?", and i can truly so no, now i am in the realms …
carbonbased
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About Me
carbonbased
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About Me
i`m slightly broken and damaged, but i do work, i am still trying to put my life on the rails, but i am finding it hard, i lead a non-existent social life, i have two beautiful children, which are the epitome of my life, i actually do like people believe it or not, but finding genuine friends are even harder to find.....
i`m slightly broken and damaged, but i do work, i am still trying to put my life on the rails, but i am finding it hard, i lead a non-existent social life, i have two beautiful children, which are the epitome of my life, i actually do like people believe it or not, but finding genuine friends are even harder to find.....
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Interests
i like anything military (modern), i like films, which you can lose your-self in, as the same as books, i like techno-thrillers, my music is somewhat to be desired i love S.O.A.D, queens of the stone age, red hot chilli peppers and so forth, but my biggest interest is to find new and friendly people, who will accept me for who i am, simple really...
i like anything military (modern), i like films, which you can lose your-self in, as the same as books,
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Journal
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THE NOTHINGNESS
August 23, 2009 5:16pm
I am not sure wether this is a up-date, or just me talking to myself (again), anyhow i imagine how i was a few months ago till up to now in …
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scraping the bottom
April 27, 2009 6:01pm
yes i`m still here i think, i haven`t changed, just quieter i suppose, my life seems un-naturally quiet, i feel like their is some thing missing …
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one to another !!!TRIGGER"
February 18, 2009 6:20pm
i feel so deflated, and empty, aarrrgghh, to be brutal i hate it, i hate to say i need to cut myself even worse, to go back to when my self …
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complicated
February 9, 2009 4:22pm
why do things have to get complicated, its gettting to the point where i am losing track of things myself, my gp thinks i could have aspergers …
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Hugbook
Kiss
Missing you! ;~( xxx
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Hug
Crap...looks like i've missed you again! ;~( Miss you and love you sweetpea... Mwah. xxx
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Little Love
Sorry i missed you on here the other day honey. Miss you loads and hope you come back soon. If i'm not on here then email me sweetie...i'll get that straight away ok? Oh and you know you can ring me anytime too! I would love to chat to you again....you know that! ;~) Lots of love and take care sweetheart...Sarah. xxx
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Little Love
Mwwwwah..missing my little mate! Love ya honey. xxxxxxxxx
Shout Out
Hey you!!! How r things going for you
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
i was s/a from the age of 7, i was also violently and mentally abused by my father and people he knew, my mother stood back and did nothing, i thought every child went through the same so i thought it was normal, it went on till i was 14, i started self harm as a way of escaping and covering up the torrment, my self harm continued throughout my life, feeling disgusted with myself, my self harm has led to many life threatening situations, i am now 40 and still self harm.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- i have tried it but i am not a good socializer, hate people seeing my body, so i cut myself off from everyone. its very rare that i go out
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- seen a psychologist for 4 years, it has made me have serious flashbacks,and night terrors,
- Tegretol Considering
- my meds do help me i suppose, especially on bad weeks, and when suicidal,the bad side is the after effects, they make me extremley tired and "not with it" and if not taken on time they make me ill
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
my compulsive disorder started when i was 16 years old, after suffering many years of sexual, physical and verbal abuse, when i lived in a bedsit i would clean everything from the smallest item to the biggest irrevalent wether it needed cleaning or not, the sort of idea at the time was that i could clean the feeling of being dirty out of me from my abuse, it still runs my life today, i have become a slave to the house, if i leave the cleaning, it makes my deppression and self harm worse
Treatments
- Paxil Working / Worked
- seroxat did not really work, and am still looking for the right medication which will suit me
Open Paranoia
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