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rob76 
fuk everything,,,my logic is correct and most people dont see it..mainly my fake family...im forced now to have no control over my death as before i had a plan but now im out of resources....pennsylvania sucks i hate hate this state and all doors are closed.im in a fukin hotelroom in the middle of nowhere....all i know is that i dont want to leave this world with anger because im afraid it will impact my destination....i know my t will never get better and i will accept it..so im only on borrowed time...i dont feel sorry formyself i just want to end things the right way....i want to be at peace and one person took this from me because of their own insecurity....no where to go but up or down..........Tinnitus destroyes peoples lives and no 1 cares.....bottom line
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Rob,
If I understand right, you're in the six month zone of the big T. It toke me about 7 to 8 months to even start adapting to severe T. I'm now in month 13 and I'm doing much better though the T is about the same. There used to be an old Veteran on this sight (severe T 10+ years) and he told me you'll gradually just see your T as just another noise in a noisy world. I think he's right. I have a friend who is a wedding videographer who has severe T for 8 years. He claims the volume of his T went down after 2 1/2 years.
The isolation and torment of T is torture. I don't think anyone can relly understand blindness unless they are blind.
Did you see the post on the ABC news special on T on the discussion page? T is starting to get the attention it deserves.
I've lived in Pennsylvania all my life. It's not that bad...
I apologize. I meant to comment on one of your previous journal entries and never did.
Your friend,
John
JohnK
rob, i feel the same way.. about the HATE in my heart. i dont want to die, especially feeling this hatred for my ex,and alot of my "family" thats a recipe for damnation in eternity. Im scared man! dont wanna live, dont wanna die! but it canget better as long as your alive, fight it man,try to not fight man! its hard, i feel ya exactly!!! wouldnt fault ya for offing urself. but put it off another day.
a1a
all people are shit and leave at some point
i wish i could die too but something tells me not too.. that im too young and even tho my chest pounds and i see no clarity ahead that i need to... im very disappointed with this people like you and many others just suffering and when someone gets really pressured they just give up and leave
well rob youve got a friend in me and im not like them i dont know if its a gift or a curse on me but i wont judge you and ill be there
secrecy
Rob, If you are there I am here for you. I have the most disasterous t and feel like you do. Peace at any cost is what I tell myself. Like secrecy though something tells me to not do it right now. I hope you are resting peacefully wherever you are right now my friend. Mark
winterbridge
hey man i get bad T too i just listen to music. just know that alot of ppl suffer in silence and the world may seem bad but it is only cuz we are suffering. there are some good in this life. hold on.
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