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rob76 
there is no god no good and no evil...everyone for themselves and if u fall no 1 to pick u up....i cant fucking take this shit anymore...the person i was or could have been died 6 monyhs ago...this fucking board sucks too...they all do...i will never be the same again..jst an empty shell watching the world from a glass cage....i dont even know what i do withmyself all day...i cant work i cant go anywhere and every person i have ever been friends with is piece of shit....would they call me or be conserned if i was in a wheelchair.,...maybe ill cut off my own legs so ican make my pain visible....what the fuck does it take but than again i was a selfish bastard too...before this,,,,,now all i want to do is die,,,im not afraid but threre a lot of things that could go wrong.....my production career is over and i was just getting started,,,,my music is my life..... it's what defined me...now im just a ghost..i want to believe that this will go away but i know the chances are slim...i've had a fucked up life and sufferd a lot..and everyone says im so strong to have endured so much...the truth is that im not,,,none of the fucked up events in my life ever made me stronger i just became numb.........scared,battered,bruised,,im losing my mind and just want to go to a better place ,,away from all this pain and suffering,,,,,waiting to see if my phone rings and it never does anymore...because i cant go out anymore and party or play out at clubs like used 2....my new name is DJ assface,,,,,i need help...my life cant end this way,,,,im still jst a kid...not fair ...all because of one person,,,,who didnt give me earplugs at the gunrange...fuck him.......a persons life can be destroyed in a few minutes...i will not live the rest of my life in a prison fuck that..i just dont give a shit .....anymore,,,bring the pain...........and alcohol should be listed as a form of treatment..........let's see.....alcohol/working
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Hi Rob, so sorry that you are in so much pain. While I can't say I know exactly how you are feeling, I can say that I know what pain is. Pain is Pain no matter how it manifests itself. I am here if you want to talk or just sound off. But I warn you... I can get and give a good swift kick when needed. Hope your doing better today. Be well and Love YOUR SELF.
LatinaSoul
iam sorry you are in such pain.. i know the feeling i had ringing in my ears most of my life from getting losta ear infections. it used to drive me nuts but. one day i made up my mind i said to myself i will not let this take away my happiness. anyway.. i will keep you in my prayers. If you need someone to talk to I'm all ears.
angelarw33
hope thats made you feel better,for the time being having a good blast,im looking out 4 the next one,take it easy ave a cool ed.
treann
You sounded like me a while back, i havent been sober long, but let me tell you.. I thought that alcohol was my strength, that it gave me power...the truth is Rob, it took away my power.
I lost everything great in my life. I was sleeping around and now let me tell you, i feel it man. Wow, do i ever.
BUT....today, you can reclaim your life back. DO IT! You want it.
This may sound like horsesh*t to you now, but let me tell you...alcohol is the crappy reason we are where we are now. Lets use this time to reflect on how to get better, ok.
TO RECLAIM YOUR LIFE BACK...it WILL get better, trust me i know all too well.
New Beginnings...we both deserve it.
Screw the bars and phony people where their only passion is how much piss they can drink.
Meliss (Emm)
meliss29
I wish I could just hold you and let you weep. That's what I would do and then we would go out and eat and go do something stupid and probably have fun in the process. I wish you peace my tonight my friend. I am sorry for whatever happened to you and I've had bad things happen to me too, but I don't want to go to prison either so I choose Jesus love for me..I don't know any other way and so far it is helping me stay alive one day at a time. I tried Alcohol but it didn't work for the pain and whenever you sober up it's just still there so I hated that. Message me and let's talk. I think I can help you. Where are you now?
lilmskeys