Journal

I am out of the shock now, and on to the realization of what he did and how he initially blamed me - typical response from what I have read.

He chose this, I did not force him to seek out other women, now he is crying like a baby that he loves me and wants to stay together.

I am at a point where if he wants this, then he needs to show by his actions that he does and not by his words - because so far, all of his words have been lies. 

But even so, I am not sure that I want to get back together; how can you trust this same person that promised to be faithful to you that after 10 years of marriage - well, actually, he was cheating on me during our 10th anniversary.

If I have any hope, I can not trust him with that glimmer of hope because he has destroyed anything that I given him so far.

Just disgusted today. 

Is anyone having an awful time with their asthma this summer?  I am in Dallas, TX and have spent over a week in the hospital so far and cannot go outside without going into an attack!

Just curious - when I was in the hospital, there were three of us with the same problems.  Dr. said that the heat was not going to be my friend this summer...LOL

Oh well, will keep my ice near (to put in a cloth and breath through when I go out) and make the most of life as usual : )