still clean
Well today is day two and i feel great.Today i went to a doctor and got set up with a monitored suboxone program to …
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My current status on everything: I am now in 10th grade and i am smoking more than ever. I am smoking more weed then i am ciggs but i mean yea. The thing is, i'm not rlly trying to quit but on one hand i do want to quit because a lot of people just see me as a smoker and nothing else. I am a person just like anyone else and i shouldn't be judge just because i smoke a lot. It really pisses me off. Now with my ex-girlfriend. I have to see her everyday in school and i really fucking hate it because she thinks everything is mainly okay between us and its not. I will never forget what she did to me and how she hurt me. She is one of the main reasons i smoke all the time. I mean i did just get over a very serious 5 month depression and that depression was about her so don't get the impression that i am still hurting as much as i used to be. Now i feel like i won't find anyone who will show me the love she showed me. I feel like i won't find anyone for a long time and it has been making me sad recently. School wise, since the school year has recently just started the grades are alright so far.
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Adam, glad to hear the grades are staying up there and good. It's hard so hard to let go of love and go on. I nearly dropped out of school with a broken heart when I was a sophmore in High School....thought I'd never get over that first true love. He grew up, married a woman 30 miles south from where we live, produced three children then realized he's gay! Lucky me! Your time will come my dear. I do hope you stop smoking though, she's (the ex) not worth hurting yourself over. Hang in there!
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