Journal

Once the first quarter is over, i am going to move it up to 25%.  each of the 4 quarters will be worth 25%.  I am doin pretty good except for geometry and bio so i rlly have to work on those.

My current status on everything: I am now in 10th grade and i am smoking more than ever.  I am smoking more weed then i am ciggs but i mean yea.  The thing is, i'm not rlly trying to quit but on one hand i do want to quit because a lot of people just see me as a smoker and nothing else.  I am a person just like anyone else and i shouldn't be judge just because i smoke a lot.  It really pisses me off. Now with my ex-girlfriend.  I have to see her everyday in school and i really fucking hate it because she thinks everything is mainly okay between us and its not.  I will never forget what she did to me and how she hurt me.  She is one of the main reasons i smoke all the time.  I mean i did just get over a very serious 5 month depression and that depression was about her so don't get the impression that i am still hurting as much as i used to be.  Now i feel like i won't find anyone who will show me the love she showed me.  I feel like i won't find anyone for a long time and it has been making me sad recently.  School wise, since the school year has recently just started the grades are alright so far.  

So far, everything in my second year of high school is going all right.  Unfortunately, i have to see my ex-girlfriend everyday and i had a serious 5 month depression over her and she thinks everything between us is alright and its not.  But i am moving it up to 5%.