Journal Entry for November 25, 2008
November 25, 2008 11:29am
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AlexInManchester 
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AlexInManchester
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PERSON WITH MONEY URGENTLY NEEDED. Hello everyone, my name is Alex, and I live in Manchester in the UK. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in August 2005, but in reality, it first reared its ugly head in 1996 before my 15th birthday. I also have ADHD, but the bipolar has been far more troublesome, and is my main problem. In addition, I am a shopaholic. I have recently come out of hospital following a nine and a half week hospitalisation for mania. I was as good as ignored by the national health service, and it got to the point where my friends were looking after me around the clock, because I thought I could fly, and was convinced that I was about to become very rich. Whilst in the hospital, I was messed about with by one doctor who kept changing my tablets and made me so ill I had to be sectioned for the weekend. Therefore, I asked for another doctor, and he favoured his suits and his lambourgini over my care. He messed around with my meds as well, and discharged me on Abilify, which made me ill and gave me 26 nasty side effects. I also take lithium, topamax, diazepam and quetiapine, so to say I have been doped up is an understatement! I have just gone under a new psychiatrist who is not a crook, but it has come too late and my head is a complete mess. This is all in the private system by the way, and my dad paid out £37, 000 for my treatment in the hospital. He is so upset by the bad treatment which I received in the hospital under the other two doctors that he won't pay for me to be re-admitted there under my new decent doctor, even though I'm now in quite a state. I'm hearing voices, seeing people who I'm convinced are real but then they disappear into thin air, having terrible problems sleeping even with temazepam as well as diazepam and a large cocktail of other medications, and I am getting to the point where I can't cope anymore. My dad has just been diagnosed with cancer, and I can't cope with that. My mental health is deteriorating by the day, and I can't go to the NHS, because the mental health units in this area are dirty, dangerous and completely non-therapeutic. My social worker is a waste of space; she doesn't understand bipolar and won't come to see me at home- I have to see her, and she is off sick more than she is in work. It's got so bad that I am seriously considering killing myself. I just wish that I would win the lottery so that I could pay for my hospital treatment myself, as I can't take this anymore. So if anybody rich with lots of money is reading this, I'm desperate.
PERSON WITH MONEY URGENTLY NEEDED. Hello everyone, my name is Alex, and I live in Manchester in the UK. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in August 2005, but in reality, it first reared its ugly head in 1996 before my 15th birthday. I also have ADHD, but the bipolar has been far more troublesome, and is my main problem. In addition, I am a shopaholic. I have recently come out of hospital following a nine and a half week hospitalisation for mania. I was as good as ignored by the national health
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Good conversation, having a laugh, music (very therapeutic, I find), the gym, swimming, travel and tourism, 9/11, crime and psychology. My MSN Messenger is working again, if anybody wants to chat!
Good conversation, having a laugh, music (very therapeutic, I find), the gym, swimming, travel and tourism,
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Hey Alex how you doin'.SRY means Surrey btw.Don't ask me what btw means,lol.
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hey, sorry i haven't been on site. missed you.things rocky here. jan
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Close Bipolar Disorder
Hi everyone,I'm Alex,26 and female.I've had bipolar for 9 years,but wasn't diagnosed till 2 years ago.I've just had a severe manic episode which has turned my life upside down,and I am looking for support and advice to put it back together again.Any advice and support will be very gratefully received!
Treatments
- Holistic Health Not Working
- I have tried reflexology and acupuncture, as I got them for free,but I found neither helpful whatsoever.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- This drug's been brilliant 4me.I sleep beautifully through the night when I'm well,which has been very beneficial,because I suffer with fibromyalgia.However,I couldn't function on it when I took it morning AND night,so I take it ALL at night 2get this beautiful sleep.I recommend taking top dose of Seroquel at night to everyone who has trouble with their sleep.However,you do have to watch your blood pressure in the morning,as it can drop so much that you collapse &end up unconscious 4a few hours!
- Tegretol Working / Worked
- I've taken the slow release version of this at top dose.It worked very well at first,but over time it became less and less helpful.I'm coming off it shortly and switching to valproate,provided my blood tests come back ok.When I was on the ordinary carbamazepine,I had terrible attacks of blurry vision,dizziness,disorientation,and a rash all over my neck and face.Switching to the slow release formation took these unpleasant side effects away.My only real problem with it was forgetting words.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- I tried Zyban for my ADHD,but I had no benefit from it at all.It didn't help my bipolar,either.
- Zyprexa Somewhat Helpful
- BE VERY CAREFUL WITH THIS.I put on two stone in the first ten days.I couldn't stop eating,as my insides hurt with hunger 24 hours a day.After a few weeks,it became just about tolerable,but the weight carried on piling on.When I switched to Seroquel,I lost a stone and a half without trying;then my weight plateaued,and 18 months later,I haven't been able to get my weight down with dieting and five days in the gym and the swimming pool.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- I have found this antidepressant extremely helpful over the eight years which I have taken it.To my knowledge,I have had no side effects,except a small amount of weight gain on it (half a stone or so).It's been a wonder drug to me,and I fully recommend it to anybody.
Close Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
AlexInManchester hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Healthy Relationships
AlexInManchester hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Fibromyalgia
I've suffered with this since I was 18. It forced me out of university twice, although I wasn't doing too great on the bipolar front either. At 21, I finally went on the sick with it and although thanks to one of my bipolar meds (Quetiapine) I now get a good sleep every night which has made a significant improvement in my condition, I am still in no state to be working, and I want to be able to work one day. I have given up, but I shouldn't be doing that really.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Not Working
- All that I got from this was feeling like I had pins and needles going all round my body, when a few tiny needles were put in my legs. Though I am not sure that the therapist really knew what he was doing, so I made an excuse not to go back after the second time.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I've suffered a lot of abuse in my life; far too much. The most recent example is almost getting raped by a bastard who works as concierge in my building. Fortunately, I managed to fight him off, but I have been left extremely shaken.
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- Abuse Counseling Not Working
- I went to Rape Crisis once, but the counsellor was amateur and patronising.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- If the person accepts responsibility and apologises, then maybe you can move on, but otherwise, I can't see this succeeding.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- It's good to have some songs with words which you identify with, and sometimes comfort can be found in music, surprisingly enough.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- You have to be careful with this. It has certainly not helped me, except once I had a good counsellor I saw for a few months, when I had serious debt problems and stuff, but she was no help for what I actually went there for! It is vital that you have the right therapist. Some can end up screwing you up even more, and with some they don't help you and you waste your time. I have said some terrible 'therapists' in the past; you do have to watch out.
- Talking Working / Worked
- I find my Community Psychiatric Nurse is a very good person to talk to. And sometimes, it's good to have a rant to a friend.
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